Cherry Blossom
Date: Jul 18th, 2008 11:04:08 pm - Subscribe
Mood: serene
I am ready.
I can't really say what for, because I honestly have no idea.
Things are really changing. Things are always changing. I am proud to say I've learned that. And recent changes in my life are really pushing me to be a better person.
I have really lessened the drama in my life, and even when school starts, I plan to keep it that way.
This change is really pushing me to realize what I have.
I am pretty much smiling constantly. Laughing, crying, I always hated people who bottled up their emotions. Little did I know, I was one of them.
It's really tough to live with; hate. I am quitting that. Completely.
I want to feel everything but that.
I want to feel it all.
Floating, is a way to describe it. I want to feel the breeze and move fast enough. But not too fast. I wouldn't want to miss a sight that I have never seen. Life is so beautiful. Life is adventure. I can't miss out on that.
Cherry blossoms bloom, and only stay that way for about 2 or 3 days. Imagine that. But I have never seen a more beautiful flower. They truly make use of their time. Seize the day. That's the idea...in the tattoo...
I really do love it. The pain was worth it.
It is beautiful and constantly reminds me of this change.
So, I am ready.
I still dont know for what,
but I am.
This summer is what brought it.
Summer is ...
Carpe Diem.
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If you read that, then wow. Reading over it, I really jumped around. That was an interesting rant. A different way to write. I cant delete it. I loved writing it too much.
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Babbling
Date: Jul 18th, 2008 11:03:37 pm - Subscribe
Mood: enlightened
This is just going to be be babbling for a little, so if you dont like mindless ranting, then you should probably stop reading right about.....
here.
So i have been thinking alot lately about things I thought I had figured out. Well, I would like to start with the fact that my personality and the person I am is not one of these things. I have me pretty much done. I know exactly who I am and have become the person I want to be. This is the reason for the recent tattooing. I really want to remember the time in my life where I figured out what I want out of life.
Ok, back to the thinking alot. Well the thing that had me stumped was why I didnt believe much in God. I have had my fair share in bad things that have happened to me and my family, and I really didnt think that a loving and just God would let things like that happen. I had the impression that there was a God, but he really had nothing to do with what went on in our lives. But I am starting to realize that all these things have made me the strong person I am today. Every event in my life that knocked me down made me stronger and I am really starting to see that maybe someone has a plan for me. There are people who have way worse problems than I do, and even they believe in God. Everything happens for a reason, and God has a plan for all of us. I am proud to say that I do believe in God. I believe in parts of the bible. I can't really say that I believe, everything was written down and nothing was exaggerated. But I am happy with where I am at. I am going to start going to church. Not to better myself, but mainly to focus on strengthening the connection I have with God.
I am extremely relieved to have gotten that out.
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