Too much on my mind
Date: Feb 21st, 2005 11:30:49 pm - Subscribe
Mood: alright
Things that go:: You asked what was wrong. I smiled and said \'nothing.\' Then I turned around and whispered \'everything.\'
I've spent the last few days wondering about what's going to happen... Not short tern-wise. But in the long run. College, my first place to live, on my own, being the only person I have to rely on... Looking at it all now... I'm excited. So many new things to discover by myself. But while I was thinking about them earlier... I was scared. Very scared. Growing up seems like such a big leap when you're little, and really it is. But it's a lot harder than I once thought. Last year I thought I had forever until it was time to be on my own. But Now, I can practically count the days. Next year I'll be a senior... Next year I'll be decided on my future... I hope. And I'll have a plan for whatever it is I decide to do for the rest of my life. Yesterday I was worried about why I wasn't as pretty as the next girl, or why the one person in my life that means the most, doesn't care... And today, I woke up with a whole new outlook on everything. First of all, that very special person... Does like me. I'm just being paranoid. Second, the future that once seemed so big and scary... is here everyday. I just need to realize who I am before figuring out who I want to be...
I'm soo.... Dumb when I write... Just stop reading this k?
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