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Questioning Life
Date: Apr 16th, 2005 1:26:04 am - Subscribe
Mood: confused


Right now I'm very confused and I'm sitting here wondering why my life is even worth living. I haven't wanted to kill myself this much before. I've tried to kill myself before, almost succeeded too. But now, the pain is just so unbearable that the suicide attempts are getting worse. I don't even know why I'm alive right now. I should be dead, not sitting here and suffering. Why am I choosing to live this life? Because if you think about it, I am the one who chooses to live this life or not. I feel like everytime I pick up the blade, someone puts their hand on my shoulder and tells me to slowly drop it and think over what I am about to do. I don't want to live...but I don't want to die.
Comments: (1)

wildanimal - April 16th, 2005 wants so hard in life for you? Dont Talk to this about some1 u trust some1 that cares.

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