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~Scary kids scaring kids-The bright side of suffering~ that's it. iv'e decided clearly. HE IS EVERYTHING I WANT. I like the way he looks. I like the way he talks. I like the way he dances. I like the way he kisses. I like EVERYTHING about him! he's everything i want. too bad that he's not what my heart desire's for.  <3 <3 <3 |
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~Scary kids scaring kids-A breath of sunshine~ So, it's still hard for me to believe that October actualy ended. too bad that it took away my happiness with it. I hate to feel misunderstood, and that's how i feel now. I feel so alone, though i know i'm not. but somehow i am. it seems like my friends like me only when i'm doing good things for them, buy if i accidently disappoint them, they suddenly hate me. even if they know that it's no my fault. I hate it. I hate myself. I hate my heart. I hate my emotions. I hate the way i hurt myself over and over again with my stupid thoughts. I want to be at Yuri's place for the weekend, i feel so good there, but i can't go, my mom want's me to spend the weekend with her at her friend's birthday. I DONT WANT TO. one thing that makes me happy, is that me and Eli are friends again. I missed him so much! I missed his cute smile, his hair...<3 I hope i'll be fine. but for now, i just need a HUG. <\3 |