so...alot of things have changed.
it started in the last month...
i met someone named Yuri on the net, we used to talk by ICQ for a month...even less.
So, yuri has a friend, named tenta(a nickname.) and by misstake i realized that i have tenta in my ICQ contact list, but we never realy talked...
and somehow i saw his picture,and he is HOT, GRRR i wanted him SO BAD!
back to Yuri.
he suggested me to sleep over at his place(he lives in a different city) in the weekend,
so i said YES
i know that it was very stupid, and dangerous, but i had the bestes feeling about it.
so...iwent there. i met Yuri and alot of his friends, i had the best time ever!!!
while i was there, i also met tenta(!!) and we(me and tenta..)were together for all the weekend,that means- a lot of making out
That time, when we stood in front of the city view...he huged me so tight...and said to me that he loves me and that he doesn't want me to leave...I was so HAPPY.
but i was kinda sad too...cus it was a lie,and i knew that he just wanted sex, i knew that i don't have feelings for him too, but yet, I so wanted his words to be true, i so wanted to love him, but fuck it
so we spent the night together...
he huged me so tight so i could not sleep! <3
but who needs to sleep?!
DRY SEX. that's all i have to say.
the story got more complicated when tenta came to my city...
he was drunk..and started to makin' out with my friend...
i ended up drank too, cuz i felt bad.
somehow he told me that Yuri hates me...and i just couldn't look at him, or touch him after i saw him with my friend.
i felt BAD. that's why i drank.
It was raining that day, we got wet...we kissed in the rain...and...since then i got confused abot my feelings for him.
again...FUCK IT. i just want to have FUN!
EVENTUALLY...
I learnd that the innocence is gone from this world
and...
i had the best time ever this month!
I met so many people!!!
and now i'm just happy