long overdue
Date: Sep 13th, 2007 1:42:30 pm - Subscribe
Mood: introspective
What I am Listening To: Richie Hawtin & Sven Vath: Live at Cocoon

yikes, it's September already. A lot has happened in the last few months, and it seems that this is the first time in a while that I've been able to sit down and hit up my blog.

I should be starting my Bachelor's program but unfortunately I didn't pass my Java class. I would have been ok with it if I had simply slacked the fuck off, but it's really frustrating when I don't feel that it was my fault that I failed the class in the first place. I'm pretty over it at this point, but I still have to sit down and have the conversation with my academic counselor and move forward from here. I guess that I've let it out on a limited basis but this medium has always helped me keep focus on what's going on with me.

The job's going fairly well, too. It's a lot of work and a lot to learn, but it seems to be going ok. I'm getting my projects taken care of as quickly as possible, but I end up needing a lot of help from the people on my team, which is kinda straining the relationship between all of us. I guess what it comes down to, and I should have expected this, but I really had to have my hand held through a few things before I can get a handle as to what's going on and also so I have a basis to work off of as I continue. Besides that, I'm not really the kind of person that like to ask for help, much less have my hand held through a lot of the sorts of things that I'm going to be doing in my job. I'm doing what I can, but I'm really in a weird position in general with my job right now, because I was given the opportunity to just get in there and learn everything that I'm going to be doing on the fly, so I have to absorb and use very quickly.

I guess things are going good, but really I've just felt that some wind has really gone out of my sails lately, and I think it started with my Java class and went from there. I think that this bit of free time came at a time when I need to refocus on what I"m trying to do and buck up and do it. I've been really busy and haven't really thought about it, but have just done. We'll see how things go, but I think I'm going to buy some anime.

...peace bitches.
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