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xbang_bang I can't help it. - Subscribe
I love the attention.
I love the feeling.
I love the gossip.
I love the different lives.
I love the game.

I hate my life.
I just keep coming back for more.
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Mood: trapped

xbang_bang Not what it seems. Apr 11th, 2008 6:24:14 pm - Subscribe
The parties don't stop. The weekend starts on Thursday and goes right into Monday morning.

I can't stop. Do my makeup, then my hair, give me my heels and I'm out the door.

Alcohol in one hand and my girlfriends on my other side.

La dolce vita.

But it's not what it seems.
These friends, well they're fake.
Along with the smile I put on the only solid thing I have right now is the vodka that assures me a drunken night.

Not even my boyfriend is solid.

People can't see through walls. President of my sorority, dean's list, the "fabulous four" as me and my friends are known, my "perfect" boyfriend.

La dolce vita... right?
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Mood: sour

xbang_bang Almost over. Apr 16th, 2008 6:09:46 pm - Subscribe
All the snow finally melted in this little mountain valley.

Flowers are starting to bloom, and everyone has spring fever.

Love is in the air.

The school year is coming to an end and it is almost a bitter-sweet thing.

I am still trying to work to get my life in order to find out who I really am.

I came in with good intentions. But at this school nobody leaves untouched.

I'm getting older, and I am learning as I go.

Things aren't always what they seem.
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Mood: worn

xbang_bang The spring and what it does. Apr 18th, 2008 1:45:46 pm - Subscribe
Now a days it's so easy just to get back into the summer living mentality.

It's so easy to get lost in the sunlight here, letting it engulf you, hiding you... blocking you from everything else.

This is the spring and what it does to you.
It makes everything else seem almost not worth the stress because when you step outside it's the most beautiful feeling you've ever experienced.

Step out of these dorms and into the warm spring air, take a minute look around and put your sunglasses on, then take a deep breath for this is the freshest air you have ever tasted. Let it sink in. Then let it out. Now I am ready to live.

This makes life worth living. It is la dolce vita.
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Mood: radiant

xbang_bang It's still cheating. Apr 29th, 2008 4:21:52 pm - Subscribe
Less than two weeks now and the drama doesn't stop.

I am such an idiot for trusting you.

I knew I would get fucked over. It was too perfect to be true. I don't care if only three people know about what happened it doesn't fix anything.

I am not going to save you now.
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Mood: stupid
On the speakers:: Butch Walker.