Life just isn't what it used to be. It's kinda depressing. NO I am not saying I am depressed I am just saying what is going on kinda gets me down.
My parents are thinking about divorce. Actually that doesn't bother me much. What does bother me is hoe hard my little brother is taking it. He is not much younger than I am but this has got him all crazy and depressed. I try to spend more time with him but when I do we end up arguing.
My mom is actually kinda happy. I don't get it. You think she would be depressed, but no she's not. Maybe she is like me, or I am like her. We just don't get depressed we have our moments but all round we are pretty happy people.
And as for my Dad I just choose not to speak to him.
I am starting to work more, because I know that when my Dad leaves we will be out one income. Now I come from a privilaged family and the chances are I don't need the extra hours but I would feel bad if I asked my mom for extra money to buy those cute shoes I just have to have from American Eagle.
School is getting a bit stressful. I am doing so much better than last quater but still I am not enjoying myself. It seems like all the friends I thought I had I am growin away from. Maybe it's my fault but I don't know. All I know is that when I graduate or whatever I want to do it with my friends. My old friends. I miss them I guess.
Jeff is good to me we are going to be five months in a couple days [= So that's a good thing. I really do love him alot. He's amazing.
All I can say is that I can't wait for summer everything is always good in the summer.
Dressed to kill // Blue t-shirt/ gray cardigan
Well that's what today feels like to me. I woke up expecting lik three feet of snow just like the weatherman said, we didn't get any. That meants no snowday like I hoped for.
Today is mine and Jeff's fifth month together I am very happy about that. I really do love him with my whole heart.
But I have to admit I miss Bryan, my first love. I know it's bad but these things take time. It's hard though. I guess I just don't want Jeff to hurt me like Bryan did. That would just be too much to bear. I really would be so embarrased if I let it happen twice.
I have been assured by him that he won't hurt me. I am his first girlfriend so I can't help but believe him. He's just amazing.
I hope today turns out good I hope I can get my shoes on the right feet by the time school is over.
Dressed to kill // Brown&Teal Abercrombie zip up
Words of wisdom // It is undesirable to believe a proposition when there is no ground whatsoever for supposing it is true.
- Bertrand Russell
I've never been much of a Thursday person. I know the day before Friday, but there is something about Thursday that gets me.
I think it is the fact it is the day before Friday but it's not Friday. It's kinda like Generic Friday.
Yeah that sounds a little wierd I guess. I am just tired. Hope you have a good Thursday.
Dressed to Kill // Jeans, Red Billabong tee&Gray Cardigan
Words of Wisdom // Don't walk and read at the same time.
let the flies have it-
They are hungry for blood, guts
on the stairs; I have plenty
to spare, enough to mark
each tree, bless my way home.
Under the table
waltz to a minuet far
far away. Roll up your hems
and suck in your haws,
the cracksare creeping
up the walls.
Here is an arm for you,
a leg, a stole - mink pink
turned inside out
crying alive alive - oh, hey !
This is the call to dance,
the kiss that won't betray.
Hmm Comment? Tell me what you think?
Dressed to kill // Joggin pants & hoodie
Words of wisdom // You know you've achieved perfection in design, not when you have nothing more to add, but when you have nothing more to take away.
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery
Cast away from everything I have worked hard for and persevered.
So it goes.