I need answers!
Okay so this guy were aren't technically "together" but we may as well should be.
He tells me he likes me&I like him. I sleep in his bed everynight. We share things like we live together. We are pretty much the same person.
Yeah we do all the sexual stuff. But it's intimate too.
Well atleast at night when I am in his bed. But during the day he told me that he doesn't want to show affection, but at night it is okay. &his reason is because we aren't dating so why should we act that way?
Does this sound like he is using me?
The weather is getting colder and so are you.
Your arms aren't as warm as they used to be and I think that's because they aren't around me.
But atleast I know you care. Because you told me.
And I'm scared but I trust you. I just hope you warm up soon.
"I like you so much, it's just sometimes I hate you too."
I like you so much too, you know that. I am just scared to like you so I push you away. But I am trying so hard.
"I know and that makes me happy."
We both changed so much.
"I miss you I can't wait to get back to school"
I miss you too.
Haha Goodnight/morning. And thanks you for finally answering me.
&it sounds like things are starting to get better.
With words as sweet as the wine I've been sipping.
I heard you admit it.
Leaving you and our close friend in my room so i could walk down the long hall to the bathroom.
I was coming back about to open the door but instead words of your's caught my ear.
You were talking about me.
So i stopped heart pumping I listened. You said "I really like her" "I wouldn't do anything to hurt her" "We are together".
And then I walked in and jumped up in the bed with you.
So the chill is here and there is ice on the windows. Almost all of the leaves have fallen off the trees. Winter is coming in so strong.
It's so cold I can see my breath and I traded in flip flops for uggs.
I love when the seasons change, but not so much when people do.
I don't know if my life is falling apart or if it's getting better.
My last living grandparent is deathly ill. She has pneumonia and her kidneys are failing. Which means that she could be dying. Not exactly the news I wanted to get while up at school.
I came home two days early having to leave my boy behind. He lives in New Hampshire and I guess I can't officially call him my boy because we aren't dating but we like each other and sleep together every night.
A whole week without him, I miss him already. I don't know if he misses me yet. He would never admit it to me. But things are getting better. I want to be in a real relationship with him, but I don't know how to say it.
Well happy turkey day everyone.
Oh God I miss you so much it drives me insane.
I think I almost love you but I don't think i could tell you that just yet.
I guess this is goodbye to the most amazing woman I've ever had the pleasure to know.
My grandmother died on November 28th, and 2:50pm.
Rest in peace I love you always.