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So, Here it is.

My signed confession. My red handed apprehension. My size seven footprint at the crime scene.

I am actually starting to enjoy my job, I enjoy going to work in the morning. I enjoy eating my lunch, and walking my meager walks. I enjoy that thrill of when four thirty hits, and it’s almost time to go home. I love little things, like the library calling to let me know my holds are in. I like cooking silly foods, and doing bare necessity laundry, and showering after a long busy, hectic day. I like little things, like calls from friends, and texts from loved ones, and a long hug after a frustrating moment.

Is this me accepting the fact that an adult life is filled with the mundane, and hardship? That yes, indeed, it is possible to find satisfaction within a repetitive and controlled routine?

All I need these days to be living the dream is a place of my own, so I can live my boring yet somehow fulfilling life as a anti-socialite.

That’s all I want.
Minimal school, no more family, and just…

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Mood: Crafty
I Hear: Typing.

david Apple's App Store for iPhone, iPod Touch Jun 9th, 2008 8:25:34 pm - Subscribe
Apple announced its App Store for the iPhone and iPod touch, available in early July. Some applications will be free, such as TypePad, a blogging tool, and Loopt, a utility which shows where your friends are on a real-world map. A free software upgrade will be required for owners of the previous iPhone; iPod touch owners will have to shell out $9.95.

Source:
Dealnews.com
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Mood: sleepy
I Hear: Eurythmics - Here Comes the Rain Again

femmeemo Tariff-40-ic. May 30th, 2008 10:16:40 pm - Subscribe

So. Another week gone by, another Friday almost done. This weekend I shall grace the Calgary Zoo with my presence.

I'm hyped.

Twenty, and never been to the Calgary zoo.

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Mood: powerful

femmeemo Fighting These. May 15th, 2008 2:58:19 am - Subscribe

Terrible thoughts. I love him so stupidly much, but...

I want things.
Things I can't have, in the here and now, with him...
Like travel,
like move out quickly,
like rely on when he'll be done work.

It seems so selfish, to take something so perfect, and question it based on my own petty selfish needs.

I wish I were lonesomely wandering the world, shacked up in a shanty in some obscure part of the globe, far from the mundaneness of the digital world of the west.

I hate this valuation system that us westerners have, who's to say that a writer is less important than an accountant, and a teacher makes less than an electrician?

I want common sense, and to be taken seriously as a human being... to escape these false hopes and dreams and aspirations, that in all actuality only belong to my parents, my grandparents, my tormentors...

I want to have my perfect world, without the pain of building it myself.
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Mood: Dour.
I Hear: Flowbots, No Handlebars.

femmeemo Tick, Tock. May 13th, 2008 2:13:24 pm - Subscribe

I watch the clock, tick away the day...

And that is my day.
---

I miss my best friend, and I miss my ability to sleep until ten, and the ability to do things during the day.

I like the pay check, but I still live at home so, how well am I truely doing?
---

On the inside I am miserable.
I love Spencer, and miss Nellus, and I loathe my family.

WHen will this all change?
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Mood: Perplexed.
I Hear: Meanial bitching.

david Blogging Using the Apple iTouch May 6th, 2008 8:22:01 pm - Subscribe
There is really no significance to this blog entry, I just wanted to test it using my Apple iTouch. I mean I can't use HTML or BB code but I guess that's ok. This works, or so I hope.
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Mood: Sick
I Hear: No music

david Purchased Mario Kart for the Nintendo Wii Apr 28th, 2008 1:57:08 am - Subscribe
Today I purchased Mario Kart for the Nintendo Wii, seems promising but I have yet to play it. My friend Sam called and said we should play Crackdown on the Xbox 360 (multi player) So I'm about to do that here in a bit.

Mario Kart Wii


Interested in playing? Leave a comment, online multiplayer is avaliable.
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Mood: good
I Hear: Reggie & The Full Effect - The Two Blings

broknangel Musicians Apr 16th, 2008 11:02:55 am - Subscribe
Its like a whole different world... wake up in the middle of the night and write a song, play guitar til 3am, and practice some more when you get up in the morning. I admire it and yet I hate it so. Okay so it was my choice to move in with him. I knew all along what he was like, and i knew that it would be hard for me, but I love him, and i knew that no matter what it was going to work because we were right.

Was I right? i guess in a way I was... then again... maybe not. Our relationship? stronger than ever. Our finances? lower than ever. I suppose the sickness hasnt helped. if i was able to work we wouldnt be in such a financial rut... Or maybe if he payed for more... but i darent ask him to pay for food or power or rent or any of the bills because i know how much this band means to him and how he already wishes he could put more money into it. but when he gets over $600 and I only get $180 i do wonder why it is that im left to pay for everything.

When do i get my break. When do i get to buy cool stuff? New clothes. i only have one pair of pants. one jersey. two pairs of socks. My underwear has holes in it and is falling apart, my only pair of shoes have holes in the soles... When do i get a break? every week i spend every cent i earn on food, and rent, and power, and petrol... to drive him to work and back, to keep a roof over his head... to keep him from starving.


I feel like im drowning, and yet in a way ive never been happier. i couldnt imagine being without him, i love him so much, and when i look at him i cant help but smile.


Does he hear me cry at night? Does he see the tears prick at my eyes as i hand over my last few coins to buy groceries, or petrol. Does he realize how stressed out and upset I am? No... because i keep it together for him. I just want him to have things good. I want him to feel secure, and I want him to think that everything is okay and he can take that time if he needs to to relax, and de-stress.

I THINK IM GOING TO EXPLODE =[
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Mood: misunderstood

broknangel Just an old blogger returned Apr 15th, 2008 12:46:09 am - Subscribe
Wow blogs aye. the older you get the less time you have to update them.

So im 19 now. It sounds better than it feels although im pretty sure i couldnt handle my life situation a couple of years ago.

So things happened at my old flat and a few months ago i moved in with my boyfriend, which i have to say might have been the best decision ive made thus far because no matter what happens ive always got him beside me to hug me and tell me everythings going to be okay, which in reality could be a lie, but its okay cos its one of those things that makes you feel better anyway. And I live with a bunch of uncomplicated chilled out people who do complain and fuss but not to the point where i feel like pulling out a gun and shooting them all, or myself. Haha, okay so nothing has gotten that bad. Okay so its a bit of a struggle, i mean what with rent and food and power and phone, and internet, for two people on the tiny amount I get off my sickness benefit and what he gets from his work its really hard to live, but we are still happy, and thats al that really matters.

Oh yeah did i mention my sickness. I got glandular fever awhile ago, i quess it was rather serious, but i was getting better when i started having seizures, so to make a long story short ive had about 7 months off work and had to be on the sickness benefit. and through several bad reactions to medications, possible liver failure, and a few other shocks, things are finally starting to get better.

i got a kitten, a cute one. okay theyre all cute. but she is awesome... cept she has just started pooing in the house which is kinda a disaster, especially if the landlord finds out....

and i got my tongue pierced. which hurt less than i expected and yet i must say hurt way too much for my liking lol, and still hurts when i eat spicy food, but its got a cool ball on it now, and it never ceases to keep me amused during bored patches in my day....

i dont really have much to say, especially since my bf is looking over my shoulder and calling me a geek cos im blogging, and until now he hadnt really realized how much of a computer nerd i really am. anyhow i spose i should go cos there is always work to be done.
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Mood: chilled

david 123InkJets Promo Promotion Coupon Codes Apr 13th, 2008 9:50:19 pm - Subscribe
Explains how to receive 10% off your purchase at 123 Ink Jets, simply by entering a promotion code at checkout.

Today I went to 123InkJet to see how much it would cost to purchase some printer ink, I get some pretty good offers now and then by mypoints so I figured I'd check it out. I noticed that the prices were not to bad, but I wanted to check out some other competitors to do a price comparison. Well when I closed out 123inkjets a window appeared and said.

"Hey wait! We have to see you leave 123InkJets. So we'd like to offer you an instant 10% savings on your order today. Click here and use "10OFFINK" to receive you 10% discount."

Well sure enough the promo code works. Using the coupon code you can receive the 10% off and in many cases receive free shipping.

123InkJets 10% off Promo Code
Use 10OFFINK at checkout.

Have a promotional code? Share it with us by posting a comment!
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Mood: saving
I Hear: Millencolin - Random I Am

david South Park - Top Internet Stars Video Apr 8th, 2008 6:04:36 am - Subscribe
In the episode Canada on Strike on South Park, some of the Top Internet Stars are featured. Here is a clip from the episode to explain more.

Video of Top Internet Stars on South Park


*This video may not last long on YouTube for copyright reasons.

South Park - Top Internet Stars List
  • "Chocolate Rain" Original Song by Tay Zonday
  • Tron Guy - We Are The Web
  • Numa Numa
  • Star Wars Kid
  • Sneezing Panda
  • Dramatic Look Gopher
  • Britney Fan Crying
  • Laughing Baby
  • Afro Ninja
  • Two Asian Guys - I Want It That Way
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    Mood: good
    I Hear: Numa Numa

    david Dramatic Look Prairie Dog Gopher Video Apr 8th, 2008 4:29:34 am - Subscribe
    Dramatic Look Prairie Dog Gopher Video - Yea I know its old but still a classic.



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  • Dramatic Chipmunk CURSES
  • Dr. Evil Dramatic Chipmunk
  • Dramatic Prairie Dog watches Bush
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    Mood: tired
    I Hear: Until We Erase - Dementia live.mp3

    david Neuro Sky Mind Control Technology Video Apr 7th, 2008 2:36:29 am - Subscribe
    This is really interesting, in fact it may be a reality by next year. By the way, the game they feature is Half Life 2 on PC.

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    Mood: good
    I Hear: Tool - 4°

    femmeemo As I sit next to a huge gun case... Mar 28th, 2008 6:16:56 pm - Subscribe

    And wonder why it is in my room, with me,
    Naked on a computer chair,
    Crossed legged,
    Ashamed.

    Hiding from a job that I loathe,
    That has ruined my weekend,
    That has me scared.

    -

    My family is gone to Jasper for the weekend, the brother has a hockey tournament.
    Yesterday night I got the nastiest, and degrading message left by the one ally I thought I had left at work.
    It has left me crumbled, and shattered.

    I am too scared of what people think.

    So as I sit here cold, contemplating...
    I feel so immature.

    I am actually hiding from her. Just like with the last position I had...
    It is so demeaning.


    Save me from myself.
    -

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    Mood: Uneasy.
    I Hear: Roxanne. You don't have to put on that red dress...

    femmeemo Mundane. Mar 25th, 2008 6:48:18 pm - Subscribe

    I don't want to look forward to the mundane anymore. I am tired of looking forward to starting my new job, which will only be good for a week or two and then it will be subject to the same shittiness that all of my jobs end with.

    I want to look forward to shiny new purchases, like Spencer's new truck, and fancy new adventures like Nell's summer long Europe trip.

    Instead all I look forward to is...
    "Hello Premier Vanlines, Andrea speaking, How may I help you?"

    I want something new.
    -

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    Mood: Jealous.
    I Hear: Jack's Mannequin.

    david Skateboarding in San Antonio Mar 10th, 2008 12:05:57 am - Subscribe
    I plan on it, I plan to buy a new deck and start Skateboarding Downtown once again. If your into the scene great, if not walk. I plan on getting back out there.

    I will post my complete once I have it all together.
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    Mood: good
    I Hear: Pauk Oakenfold - Zoo York

    david A Promise Mar 7th, 2008 1:15:36 am - Subscribe
    A reminder and a reason to never forget.

    I promise to begin designing again, I promise to put everything second, except my family. I promise to stop being a user, and start being the developer I am. I promise to start a new website this year, and stop procrastinating.

    I promise.
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    Mood: good
    I Hear: Journey - Don't Stop Believing

    femmeemo I'm on the move. Feb 29th, 2008 12:15:24 am - Subscribe

    Take the time, Take the time to move it out...

    What a fucktard misery induced hate shit day.
    And you know what. All you english majors can fuck Right off... I know that isn't a proper sentence.

    How's that.

    How can life fuck you over so hardcore, so inevitably and so cruelly....
    When you've turned your leaf and attempted to please?

    Fuck.

    Call it Karma, call it fate, I call it fucked up.
    I don't know what I want.
    I know what I don't want, and yet....
    They aren't the same at all are they?


    Make this existence worth something. Anything. Anything at all.
    Give me a purpose, and an aptitude.

    A skill.
    A love.
    A desire to keep on.
    -

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    Mood: Burnt Out.
    I Hear: Turn it Out-Death From Above 1979.

    frost Tips to Avoid Spyware and Virus's Feb 27th, 2008 4:13:06 pm - Subscribe
    Tips to Avoid Spyware and Virus's

    Introduction
    The past weekend I was working on a friends computer and he wondered how and what I use to avoid getting spyware and virus's. I laughed at the question and while trying to think of the words to explain how I avoid getting spyware and virus's I simply said, "I know what not to download". And as ludicrous as it may sound spyware, 90% of the time is initiated by users. The other 10% is not having up-to-date software, such as Internet Explorer. Which prompted me to write this exert on how to avoid downloading and installing spyware, and virus's on your on computer not knowing, so let's get to it!

    Pay Attention and Read
    The biggest problem is that most people do not bother to read the fine print, which is where a lot of companies can get you. Taking the extra 30 seconds to read the fine print can save you hours and hundreds of dollars (which would be spent fixing the computer). First off let's look at a legitimate download, which everyone needs in this day and age, Acrobat Reader. As much as it sucks, Adobe tends to bundle software with their application. Although it is not Spyware, what they bundle will slow down your computer with unnecessary software. The Photo Album is not something everyone needs or wants, especially when for most people the default windows picture viewer is plenty. But yet when you download Adobe Reader, the default check mark is set to download Photo Album with Adobe Reader. Why? Because Adobe knows that most users are not computer savy and will not un-check it thus making their name bigger and make you feel like you NEED Adobe software to do anything.

    Another company that will bundle software by default is Yahoo!. Anytime you download a game, or software from Yahoo! They bundle their crappy Yahoo! Toolbar. Which I have seen slows systems down up to 30% and most users do not even know how the toolbar came to be on their system. All they had to do was un-check one simple box, which of course is somewhat hidden and not noticeable because Yahoo! Wants you to depend on their software. In the end, companies are deceitful because they want money. Simple as that, so do yourself the favor and read and know what you are installing. It will save you numerous headaches.

    Keep Windows Up-to-Date
    As much as I do not like Windows Update (slow, and very inefficient) keeping windows software up-to-date will help you prevent spyware and viruses. Reason being is exploits are found every day in Windows software which could allow someone to inject spyware to your computer through a website, email or another means without you even realizing it. The big one is Internet Explorer, I highly suggest moving over to Firefox. That is my personal preference and have not had one issue with spyware leaking through like I have had with Internet Explorer. Keeping windows up-to-date is key to fighting spyware and viruses especially since there are many people who dislike windows and intentionally try to exploit it to disrupt it's users.

    Do not download Freeware
    Freeware online is often times bundled with Spyware galore! If you want to download free software make sure it is from a trusted source, such as Download.com, who regularly checks software on their website for spyware. No matter what avoid downloading any type of screen savers. As cool as some maybe, those .scr files are opening for massive invasion of privacy and attacks. The worst software to download is Screensavers so avoid it at all costs. Again anything you do download be wise and conscious about what the software is and how necessary the software is.

    Keep Firewalls Active
    Now a days with Cable and DSL a lot of people have Routers, if you do not I highly suggest getting one, as they come with a Hardware firewall, which ultimately protects you more than any software firewall could even dream about without taking up your computer's resources. A lot of your probably remember a few worms a while back that hit a ton of computers, Code Red I think was a huge one for DSL customers. When this worm hit the only really protected computers where those that had a hardware firewall in place to block certain ports which the worm infiltrated on. There are always worms circulation through the internet that attach to computers who do not have the port or an update to fix the worm blocked.

    I have Spyware!! Help!
    Once you have reached the stage that your computer is infected with Spyware, you have two choices. First choice is to download my favorite program, Spybot Search and Destroy. I have used this program for many years and if the spyware can be removed without a format this program will do it. Your second choice, which most people do not like, is a clean format. Basically wipes all of your software off and restarts you from ground zero. Personally I format my computer every 3-6months whether my computer is infected or not. But for the average user that is not viable. I would suggest that your computer is formatted every 1 to 2 years. Just to keep it running smooth and clean. When the computer is formatted you know that it is spyware, virus and any type of malware free.

    Ending Notes
    In the end avoiding Spyware, Malware, Worms and Virus's does not require some high priced virus or spyware checker. All it requires is a little work and a little time to make sure you are downloading and installing software you want and making sure it is not infected or bundled. I have not ran any anti-virus or anti-spyware software on my computer since 2000 and the only time I get infected, is when I consciously realize that I downloaded something I should not have. Luckily I have multiple harddrives and I always make sure that my main Windows Drive has nothing important on it so I can format it without worrying about losing any personal or important data. Well I hope this will help you to avoid Spyware and Virus's and keep your system running clean and smooth for years to come!

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    (Note I know the two are very similar but it does not hurt to re-iterate from time to time)
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    Mood: swanky
    I Hear: spyware, malware, virus, avoid, remove, prevent, bundle, software, freeware, adware, help, stop

    femmeemo Shitty. Feb 15th, 2008 2:05:58 am - Subscribe

    You know, I hate the cliche anti-valentine crap. No one really likes the holiday, get over yourselves.

    St. VD Massacre strikes again.
    One up from last year even.

    And that's a hard one to top.

    I hate exams, and snow, and fucking responsibilities.
    -

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    Mood: Dangerous.
    I Hear: Hot Hot Heat- Aveda.