It makes me cry.


I've been listening to The Beatles all morning. It's nearly all-encompassing. I feel overwhelmed today. I feel like not enough today. I feel.

I want to sleep for weeks, eat for days, and cry until my eyes ooze from my face. This irrational depressive state is starting to wear at my nerves. As if it is any sort of positive for me.

I would prefer to go home, instead of moping at work. I could finish my book. I could have a nap. I could...

Well. Really. The possibilities are nearly unending.

Remember, Remember the fifth of November.
The gunpowder, treason and plot.
I see no reason why gunpowder, treason
should ever be forgot...
Remembrance Day soon approaches. I wonder about how the world has changed so drastically for us. How there is no forcible enlistment. No sad war-torn families. No weeping widows, commonly on the corners.

And yet. And yet.

Sadness is perpetual. At least at times of war, there is hope. And a nation pulls together...

What do we have now. Besides Fat, Consumeristic Complacency?

Depression.
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1. Perform a clean installation using the Upgrade disc -- this should work without a hitch.
   
2. Make sure there are no Windows Updates pending -- if there's an orange shield icon next to the Shutdown button in the Start Menu, that means you need to reboot before attempting the next steps.
   
3. Open 'regedit.exe' from the Start Menu -- just type it in there, where it says: Search programs and files. Accept the User Account Control dialogue that pops up to give yourself Windows 7 superpowers.
   
4. Navigate to HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE/Software/Microsoft/Windows/CurrentVersion/Setup/OOBE/
   
5. Change MediaBootInstall from '1' to '0'
   
6. Open the Start Menu again and type 'cmd' -- use ctrl+shift+enter to run it as an elevated-permissions user
   
7. Finally, type slmgr /rearm -- and press enter.

That's how I fucking feel.

Meeting here at 7:15, but you also have cover this shift at the centre until lunch time, but I'm going to need you to stop and get these picked up form the copier on the westend before noon, and be to the presentation by 12:20. Did I mention that your coworker called in sick and you have to do it by yourself?

I am streched. I also have three classes during the week, Tuesday, Wednesday and Saturday. I'm going to the gym, and I still manage to spend time with the family. I am multi-tasking.

Sure I don't see my man much right now. He's working later than I am, and all we have energy to do is to go to bed when it's all said and done.

But everything will balance right? I don't remember ever being this constantly busy. Training soon, Montreal again. Then again in the spring.

I just want some sweet sweet lovin'. A free latte every once in awhile. Traffic to not be a bitch first thing in the morning.

And above all...

One quiet fucking night.
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1. Download the Vista 64 BIT Driver from M-Audio
   
2. Save the download: FTU_V64_5_10_00_5099.exe file to your desktop
   
3. Right click on FTU_V64_5_10_00_5099.exe
   
4. Go to properties
   
5. Go to compatiability tab
   
6. Check mark Run this program in compatibility mode for:
   
7. Select Windows Vista
   
8. Under Privlege Level, check mark Run this program as an administrator
   
9. Click ok
   
10. Now proceed the installation of the driver

1. Start
   
2. All Programs
   
3. Go to Accessories
   
4. Right Click on Snipping Tool
   
5. Select Properties
   
6. Now simply enter in the shortcut key text box something like CTRL+F12.
   
7. Ok

My sister got engaged.
Yup.


I am thrilled for her, though at the same time can't help but wonder...

WHY MUST I ENDURE ALL THIS FUCKING WEDDING TALK?

What sort of satan tortures like this?
The fucking worst kind.
That's what.


If they get married in Europe, I don't think I can go. I can't afford that.

Not with the current price of a Latte.
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Despite how well we sell ourselves, our program; something always leads to another. Can you be here, at this time? Can you cover this persons' slack, can you pull your priorities here, and make time for this appointment?

Multitasking never was a strong suit of mine, but then again, neither was saying no. So, I suppose that would be why I am in the predicament that I am in currently.

Self inflicted, as always. Overwhelmed and loving it, Hating commuter traffic and all those lovely things like cyclists, pedestrians and gas prices that make the drive home that much more sweaty and loverly.

Andrea, you cannot save them all, no matter how many appointments you make, and extra shifts you pull. Save yourself instead.

That would be the best advice I could give myself, if only I wasn't so stubborn to pay attention.

Hey.

The big people are talking, and you need to focus.
Take notes.
Do whatever you need to do, to understand.

The new twist in my job has me extraordinarily busy, and is killing my slacker tendancies. The divorce that is murdering my brother is draining me emotionally, and I wish he'd just come stay with me until it was all over. And I move into our house in twelve days, you'd never know though because I have yet to pack a single fucking box. I am exhausted, and exhilerated all at once. Spelling mistakes are an added bonus.
You can have those,
for free...

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I must be an adult.

I have a parking pass for downtown - man, I am a high-roller.


Like the fucking Bill Gates of the non-profit world.

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OMFG.

Yeah, that's right. I have reverted to disgusting webspeak because I am that excited.

I bought my car. And I have the job.
I am the proud owner of a VW Jetta. It's pretty and has a sunroof and stuff.
Not to mention the wheels factor.

I will post pictures of my hideous beast as soon as I can.
But just for the record...
...I love my car.

Yeah.
Just saying.

You know, in case you were wondering.
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1. Open Internet Explorer
   
2. Manage Add-Ons
   
3. Find the Add-On on the list Manage Add-On List
   
4. Highlight it
   
5. Click on More Information
   
6. Click on Remove

1. Right click the Desktop
   
2. New
   
3. Shortcut
   
4. Enter in the browse location
   
5. Shutdown.exe -s -t 00
   
6. Name the shortcut 'Shutdown'
   
7. Now right click the new shortcut
   
8. Properties
   
9. Change Icon*
   
10. Choose the Shutdown Icon
    
11. Ok

quote:

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Windows 7 System Command Lines

Shutdown Command - Shutdown.exe -s -t 00

Restart Command - Shutdown.exe -r -t 00

Lock Workstation Command - Rundll32.exe User32.dll,LockWorkStation

Hibernate Workstation Command - rundll32.exe PowrProf.dll,SetSuspendState

Sleep Computer Command - rundll32.exe powrprof.dll,SetSuspendState 0,1,0

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1. Right click the Task Bar
   
2. Click on New Tool
   
3. In the folder line copy
   
4. %userprofile%\AppData\Roaming\Microsoft\Internet Explorer\Quick Launch
   
5. Select the folder button
   
6. You should now have a Quick Launch Toolbar