 ...she's / hardly / what / she / seems / <3 |
| Him agian. |
Feb 12th, 2006 4:24:40 pm - Subscribe |
It's when you wander into someone else's worldthat you want to be noticed. You're dangling on your last thread of dignity. Hoping, wishing, and praying. It's when you make peace with him one day, and make war the next. Sitting at home, thinking up clever hurtful things to say. Not too hurtfull, because then he might actually leave. You're too proud, and you're too confident in the promises you made to yourself. You'll just tell yourself over and over agian that this is it. It's over and you'll be better off. The you finally get a hold of them. Say your ever-so-clever little tidbits, and hope you get the reaction you were hoping for. It doesn't happen very often. It's when you want to make more of and effort that he's looking for something else. You know who she is, but you've never met. You wonder what makes her any better than you. Is it because she's healthier? More fit? Does she know him like you do? His guilty pleasures? Is it because she's prettier? He lives there. In that town. Amoungst the fun, the drugs, the chaos and the parties. You live here. In this town, and hour's drive away. Where there's no choas or excitement. Where there's just you. You make plans to visit on Friday in his town, and on Saturday in your town - and hours drive away. She lives there too. A few minute's drive away. She sounds like a great catch, but he's your boyfriend, right? You've been together for a little over a year now, and this is the third time you've been with him. When you lay in bed together it's like nothing was ever wrong, but when he goes home, you can't live. Everything stops. You can't work. You can't sleep. You can't do anything! It's when I don't hear from him for a couple days, that I write and entry to this journal people read everyday. And hope he reads it so he knows I am still alive. - Dupie. |
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| mood: sorrowful |
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riotradio |
February 21st, 2006 |
| I liked reading that. It's very raw and passionate. Or, at least it sounds like it is. Just wanted to let you know I read it. -Nathan |
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xbang_bang |
March 20th, 2006 |
| Aww thank you tons. <3 |
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