| I just don't get it. |
Aug 11th, 2007 12:49:25 pm - Subscribe |
| Things are good right now. Can't complain about what we have, these feelings I've never experienced. Making my head spin with every move my heart flutter, heat of my blood rushing through me through my veins. Everything you are, we are together is all I need all I know. The way you let me fall asleep wrapped in your cashmere touch, your warm embrace. Hold on to me, don't let go. Crashing, one fell swoop breaking everything around me. Worlds are shattered when memories of what happened, him, the other guy. The words that come so naturally to me and you were once shared with another. Feelings, hearts, comfort ripped from us letting us fall harsh and with a deep impact only to be felt forever, if not this hard but at least a little piece of my heart was taken with him. Darling I do not tell you these things they are feelings I am to fight on my own. When my one darling was not you, but another. His diamond blue eyes that were so alluring and beautiful, were also so dangerous they cut through you made you raw. Nothing like your deep dark brown. Safe and secure. But I keep going back to him, he tells me things I don't want to hear. He tells me he loves me that I am the only one he will ever feel that way for. I want to believe him but he has another girl, I hate her. I know I shouldn't. I am sure under any other circumstance we would have been friends, but it was under this unfortunate circumstance that i know her. He hasn't told her who i was, that I was his first love maybe his only. Beautiful boy caught in this mess of love and lust, I do love you. I cannot throw it all away for another chance with my first, I don't want to risk the pain of lost and the lonliness that comes along. I should only hope that I can forget him sooner than later. |
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| mood: conflicted |
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ryenne |
August 11th, 2007 |
| That's really poetic,I don't know if you meant it that way, but it's sad, I'm sorry. | ||
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