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This isn't the way it's supposed to be.	Jan 30th, 2008 6:18:07 am - Subscribe
I don't know why I feel the way I do. I can't keep my mind off you even when I am with my new musician boyfriend. I loved you, I love you. Still. I can't get over it and I know you feel the same. But you said you didn't want a long distance relationship, and I know I don't either. I didn't miss you, but now I feel like I can't live without you. I can't function I can't think I don't know why. My heart aches but doesn't break because my boyfriend's love holds it together for me, and now even those strings are straining. I just don't want to see you with someone else as selfish as that sounds... I don't want to be replaced by you. Any other guy that is fine but for some reason the thought of being replaced by hurts more than when we broke our engagement off. It's hard to breathe because I am trying not to cry but I can't help it anymore. Tears are flowing and I just want my heart to stop beating. Because with you I am comfortable, but restless and curious but without I am unable to function. Don't get me wrong I am happy with my boyfriend but I miss you so much I can't handle it anymore. I don't think Maxx and i were supposed to be together I think we were just supposed to like each other and never act on it, because i think I am supposed to spend my time with you.
mood: perplexed On the speakers:: Corinne Baily Rea	(0) comments