| A present I never wanted. |
Dec 25th, 2007 12:00:58 am - Subscribe |
| Wow. Thanks for the present I never got. I knew this would happen and I thought I was ready for it. How can I get over you when every thought of everyday is coated with memories of you&what we had? There is this burning in my heart along the lines where it should be broken. They are no longer flames just small burning embers smothering under the pressure. The burn creeps up to my throat when i talk to you, and my stomach knots itself to keep the flames from going any further. The heat remains inside of me because my body goes numb and cold. I can't feel what I should be able to and I know I'm not drunk because for once since you've hurt me I am completly sober. I am glad you can so easily go back to her after what you said about her. I am pretty sure she would like to know what you said about her, but I am not going to stoop to the immaturity you've reached over these past few weeks. I've told you I have moved on and I have but there is always the thought of you in the back of my mind, I compare him to you and he is better in so many ways but I think I am just mad because I've never been left like that. I've never felt such a hurt. Boys like you don't hurt girls like me. It's not the way things are supposed to be. I've been so good for you waiting and hoping, even wishing but that doesn't seem to help and now I've realized I deserve better. Beau this whole thing was a joke after all your immature tantrums about me talking to other boys being so protective of me, I see right through you now. Was it worth it? Did you get the praise you were looking for by the guys? Do you finally fit in? I didn't want to believe that you were just using me to get to my friends, I wanted to believe that you liked me for me but I guess not. I was so blind and so stupid and now I know not to put all my eggs in one basket. |
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| mood: sullen |
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