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Stolen.	Jan 7th, 2008 4:32:58 am - Subscribe
I don't know why i am writing to be honest with you. Usually when I write something is bothering me. Well there is alot bothering me I just don't know how to put it all into words, there is this feeling of weakness I get when i think of him with someone else. I don't know why I know it's not fair. Because I like someone else too but for some reason no matter how hard I try I can't completly get over it. It's not even anger anymore, it's more like a knotted feeling like falling. I feel like I am diving off a cliff now and I know at some point I am going to have to hit the bottom and I am trying to brace myself for it, to make it softer... why can't it be softer? Why can't your lies cushion the blows anymore? I hate liars. I hate fakes, it makes everything so much harder so much harder to get over. There was a comfort I found in being lied to even though I hated every moment of it. Just the thought that maybe what you were saying could have a chance to be true, maybe I am worth it. I was? No I wasn't. My head doesn't know what to think anymore. It has just stopped full fledged I don't think anymore. All my senses have escaped me and moved on. The days keep going faster than it's predecessor. But my heart has slowed almost stopped because I feel like I am not really capable of feeling anything anymore. I've just numbed myself because the hurt I've experienced in the past is no longer worth the comfort and love it takes. I honestly can say I am scared. I am angry and I am an emotional mess. You have taken me for everything I am worth and left me ruined for everyother guy out there that is willing to take the chance and love me. You have used me up and now there is nothing left except a pretty face with a fake smile painted to a pristine look, and hair that falls just right over my face and clothes that fit a body that no longer holds the soul and spirit it used to. You are a robber desguised as a knight and i was fooled. I though I could see right through you, now I am thinking Bree wasn't all that crazy, I know that you did the same thing to her as you did to me and she is so much younger. I don't care if we ever speak agian all I want is my soul back, I want my heart, I want my love. Because I don't want to take it from anyone else.
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