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Dec 27th, 2006 11:24:17 pm - Subscribe |
| over the last couple of days ive realised some thing about my relationship with rayner. The last couple of months he hasnt been himself. He is agressive, spitful, angry and thats not the rayner i fell in love with. He's changed and it took this to realise that i still loved and cared for him but i wasnt in love with him anymore. The only reason i stuck around was because i knew how lonely i would be without him... I miss him....but i miss the old him..the one i fell in love with....not this arsehole who only thinks about himself and when things dont go his way...then everything is agianst him and everyone wants him to fail. he has been smoking pot and drinking heaps lately.. which ne never used to do... and now due to him losing his licence he is just going down hill......fast.... i spoke to an old friend of ours and he told me that rayner has been smoking every night since we broke up...which is almost a week...and im conciding telling his parents about it, not out of spite but out of concern. I still care for him deeply...but i dont think a realationship is in the question...on both counts! if we did decided to start dating agian, things would have to change..deffnetly have to change. |
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| mood: bored. |
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