|Long Time ..||
Jun 15th, 2005 7:26:33 pm - Subscribe
Wow, it's been forever since I last posted anything. I guess I should update, huh?
Well today was the last day of school. I'm finally an official highschooler. I'm so excited to go to highschool with all my real friends and everything. It will be fun.
Next year for marching band I'm a drum major instead of a flute. I'm excited about that. I have a camp to go to over the summer to learn everything. I'm a little worried about how I won't be able to be with my friends as much but other than that I'm sure everything will work out dandy.
Ashton and I are still together..yeah. 10 months June 30th.
This weekend I'm auditioning for Juliet in the summer play "Romeo and Juliet" I'm sooo excited. Acting is my passion even though I hardly ever do it anymore. I'm so nervous that I won't get the part but I'm praying that I will.
I got in trouble by my parents a little while ago. They claim they cant trust me so I was restricted from friends. I'm not allowed to go to church anymore. I had decided to become a strong Christian and my mom didn't like that too much so now I'm not allowed to go to the church of my choice. I'll find a way to get back there but in the mean time, I study the bible on my own.
I'm absolutely bored out of my mind so I suppose I should find something productive to do.
I love you all
toe tapper: Andrew\'s Song : Hannah Dunning
|lost another loan to ditech||
May 11th, 2005 8:34:28 pm - Subscribe
I just got back from the highschool concert. It was awesome!! I got to hang out with Ashton. That was exciting. Jessie told Ashton and I that we were the cutest couple. We both blushed, it was cute
I love hiiiimm
|mood: in love
toe tapper: I Drive Myself Crazy : Nsync
|` - - <3 - - >||
May 10th, 2005 5:49:23 pm - Subscribe
|I had another mediocre day today. I don't exactly have friends at school so I hate being there. A lot of people hate me. Most see me as "popular" but I'm definately not. I know of a lot who hate me and then the people who don't hate me are incredibly fake. They'll act like they're there for me but then they'll completely turn on me and talk about me behind my back. It pisses me off to no end. I can't trust anyone. Jazz band class is my only escape from all that crap. Atleast there I have a few people who semi-care. But even then it's not enough. 8th grade wont last much longer though. I'm soo looking forward to summer and freshman year. There's so much more for me at the highschool then the middle school. ALL of my friends are older than me so I never ever see them. It sucks but I get by. I'm just so sick of being hated. I don't even know why. I mean, I know their reasons, but I don't know if they're telling the truth or if they're just making up reasons to hate me. But what pisses me off even more is the people who talk about me when I'm 2 feet away from them. That happened today too. It's the worst feeling in the world to know that you don't even have someone you can trust.
come now rain and take me away .. ..
toe tapper: Days Away : Keep Your Voices Down
|i love the first kiss||
May 9th, 2005 6:32:39 pm - Subscribe
|Well hello there
Man, today started out crappy and ended up great.
So I come to find out that some of my friends got wasted at the after formal party. It really really pisses me off. I guess they think it makes them look cool or whatever but they just look like idiots. That sorta ruined my day becuase the people who didn't get drunk just sort of laughed about it. It was stupid.
I had a fun time in all my classes though. Everyone was in a really good mood considering it's Monday and all. I was pretty happy about that.
Ashton and I had a great conversation today though. We haven't talked like that since I can remember. It feels good. Now that his calculus classes are over he has Mondays free so we talk a little more. Things are starting to look up.
toe tapper: Life Less Frightening : Rise Against
May 8th, 2005 5:15:25 pm - Subscribe
|Sooo long time no blog, huh??
Well I guess I'll give you all the 411 on what's been happening in my life in the past..about a month.
I've been getting really pissed off/upset for no reason lately. Just little things have been setting me off. I feel really bad about it.
Ashton and I are still together *knocks on wood* He's great though. There's been some rocky points but over all things have been great.
My spanish class got our teacher fired recently. And good riddence. He was the biggest idiot of all time. Just..not the best teacher ever. So now we have a full time sub. Its way better now then it was then.
Last night was the 8th grade formal. I guess it had a semi-good time. Its overrated but I liked hanging out with people. Danced with a few. Ashton didn't want to come to I signed up Daniel. He was fun. He even picked me up at my house and everything. It was awesome.
I've gotten really really good friends with Kristi lately. Most of the Ashton problems have to do with her though. Mostly I feel like
he'd rather be with her or that they're better for eachother but then she reassures me that that's not true. She's definately my best friend. Love her to death
I'm considering becoming a Christian. I go to youth group with Ashton sometimes and I'm interested in the things that go on there...I'm stuck tho. I'm a Catholic and I go to a really racist and..homophobic and just bad church, not to mention my dad is completely against me becoming Christian. It sucks but I'll make a decision sooner or later.
Man it feels good to be back here
Hope the comments keep coming <3
toe tapper: Come What May : Moulin Rouge