...Maybe...
...maybe I should just end this...
..once and for all...
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arionsrage
it all comes down to one quotable phrase - Subscribe
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i'm not sure what insomnia feels like. i'm incredibly tired. some nights, i have dreams where i'm talking to the people i encounter on a daily basis. i have trouble separating the conversations from imagined to reality. i remind myself of the movie fight club. it would be incredibly sweet if i had that second personality. i would say, screw the one typing right now, i want brad pitt to front for me. i'm 86.3% sure my room is haunted. that or i'm imagining black shapes constantly moving across the room. or i'm personifying the demons inside my mind. or my roommates could be getting something from the kitchen. i've never been able to sleep completely through the night. i always wake up two or three times. the last couple of nights, i've set my alarm and rolled over. only to roll over again to turn it off. it happens that fast. i've never passed out that quickly for so long.* *with a legal alcohol to blood content level. work is taking a life time. if you love something, give it away |
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the muched hyped african proverb Aug 9th, 2005 2:22:30 pm - Subscribe
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this is pretty common, you might have already heard this, but it goes a little something like this....
i wanted to get that out of the way. so next post wouldn't be so long. |
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its 9:48, and i\'m going to bed Aug 9th, 2005 3:09:08 am - Subscribe
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for all of you keeping score, i made it back safe and sound. i want to share a joke with all of you, it is slightly bias, so my apologies.
i changed some words around and edited a few things. hope you enjoyed it. tomorrow, if i can remember, i'll be sharing an african proverb with you. it still feels like i'm rocking inside the boat. do good |
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arionsrage
hey, you\'re really weird Aug 3rd, 2005 9:11:50 pm - Subscribe
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i was told that about 12 times today. by at least 6 different people. none of them appreciated how cool i was. remember the job interview i wrote about? and how bad it went? well i got the job. i start in about 3 weeks. i keep my current position til then, which means i have a steady pay check = getting to eat every day! which is really all i care about. getting to eat. i don't get to listen to nearly as much music as i would like. and i'm upset about that. my days are so busy that i don't have time to listen to anything unless i'm in my car. which is always bright eyes, because i can never remember to bring any other cds. ignore this link instead, go to this one. i found that picture while surfing the net. hope all is well, do good. |
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why was mary putting her face next to a tire? Aug 1st, 2005 6:43:22 pm - Subscribe
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no no no, this tire hunted mary down. this tire, murdered mary. anybody a fan of dane cook? monday = sucks hardcore! i had, i think 3, energy bars for lunch. not because i wanted the energy, but because my roommate gave them to me. and i will always accept, and eat free food before i down my own. in important news, i'm really good at this game. its called "captain planet and the robots of zarm." i can't remember the last time i lost. i play it all day at work. sad. if you want to see something disturbing, and entertaining, but ultimately funny, click here. alright, no more links. i feel like i'm selling out. arionsrage's aeonity blog is not for sale. dammit. underline, bold, italics. just a bit of fun. really i have nothing good to say. i'm in a good mood, and only working 3 days this week. do you know what sarcasm is? noooooo. do good |
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i got aces Jul 31st, 2005 4:03:28 am - Subscribe
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i just finished my activities in the water closet. showering, brushing my teeth, and shaving. my mind was on other things (see post below), and i cut myself. three freaking times. i haven't cut myself shaving since i was like...15. xmidnightx, i guessed the meaning of the word meant hug. i was being facetious. facetious has nine letters, for all of you keeping count. i almost died 3 times in the past week. all of them driving related, none of them my fault. i had to go off road to dodge a car coming head on in my lane. ok, thats one. make the count one instead of three. i was over exaggerating to enhance my blog. i'm going on a cruise in a week. i'm especially psyched about that. real quick, i have a funny story. in my last job interview, it went so bad that, the guy interviewing me asked if i was a slow reader. i got up, used my arm to swipe off everything on his desk onto the floor, flipped him off, screwed his wife, and walked out. ok i lied, i didn't screw his wife until after i left the office. she wasn't there when all of this went down. do good |
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i talk too much Jul 29th, 2005 4:19:28 pm - Subscribe
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its deathly quiet in my office. really i can't say office, it's more of a storage room with a desk and filing cabinets. and really its not my office, i'm borrowing it for the summer, but anyways its really quiet by myself in this office. which sucks because that always means its reflection time. i have a lot to think about now because of what happened yesterday. it was a great day, yesterday was. i saw some of my buddies i haven't seen in ages. we talked for at least half an hour or 45 min, just standing of the side of the road. then around 10:38 p.m. central standard time, i got a phone call. heres a little background information on a girl. we were together for almost 2 years. i went to college, and then the year after she went to college. by the time we were both in college, she was 10 hours away. i'd say about november of last year is when it ended. and it ended pretty sour. when people break up, where do those feelings go? newton's law states, "energy can not be created of destroyed." so when you break up, you can't just stop loving the person through an act of will. i guess you just have to find another place for that love. which could be a reason why people rebound like they do. the relationship ended, and we mutually agreed never to speak to each other again, after about 3 huge fights in which all her friends and all my friends were involved. it was pretty funny, because people were starting to threaten to kill each other, which i had nothing to do with. i wasn't actually in this fight, i was more of a spectator. her last words were something like, "have a nice life" to which, i didn't respond. i just left. so, 10:38 comes rolling around yesterday. after more than half a year without a single word between us, my phone rings. like an idiot, i answer it because i deleted her number from my phone, so it showed up as just the number instead of her name, and i didn't recognize it. energy can't be created of destroyed. for so long that voice represented everything i loved for two years. it caught me off guard. she called because she needed some advice. we didn't talk about "us" at all. i gave her what i could, and that was it. so now i'm left thinking about that phone call. that voice awake the demons inside me, that i've been suppressing for months. ever see the movie "swingers" a line from it goes, "they don't call until you forget them" now i'm left in this mute office, kept company by the demons of my past, listening to the humming of my mind, and wondering what to do with these feelings... |
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hazy eyes Jul 27th, 2005 6:22:30 pm - Subscribe
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so sick, so sick of being tired work is officially gay. the day is slowly crawling by. it rained today. which is nice because its finally under 90 for the first time in a long time. on the flip side, humidity is somewhere around 90%. its good if you're thirsty, you can just open your mouth. its bad if you spend more than 10 seconds outside. i had a bowl of rice, and a glass of water for lunch. but not by choice. more of out of the necessity to eat. by the way, i read a lot of blogs about girls trying to lose weight. the best way to do that isn't to starve yourself. your body needs about 1200 calories/day to function properly. go run 5 miles a day if you want to lose weight. thats about 8 kilometers for the american measurement system impaired. i've been drawing more, or trying to. more than the recent past anyways. the summer is drarwing to an end. about 3 or 4 weeks until school starts back up. which is absolutely great. for me, to poop on. well i have to get back to doing nothing, but looking like i'm doing something. peace out, girl scouts. |
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tribute, to the greatest post in the world Jul 26th, 2005 8:33:44 pm - Subscribe
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this is the greatest and best blog in the world... tribute. welcome back to your favorite site eva. i spent around 12 hours in my bed yesterday. thus the semi perfect day was achieved. "(snort) be you angels?" in case you haven't noticed, there is now a "link of the day" to your left. i'm going to change the picture to your right as soon as i find a better one. if you have one, feel free to send it to me. i'm out of food. i'm also hungry. coincidence? i'm moving into my apartment this week. which will bring the total to...5 different places i've lived in the past year. i'll keep it short. rock on |
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timberwolves at new jersey Jul 25th, 2005 2:44:16 pm - Subscribe
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i did not want to come to work today. but i did. and i hate myself for it. i realized this weekend, or more, i had an epiphany. i hope that i never fall in love again. because i don't think that i could take it. i was laying in bed, about to go to sleep, when i thought; i'm lucky just to be able to go to sleep. i've spent nights laying in bed, physically sick because i was thinking about somebody else. more correctly, thinking about how somebody else was pissing me off. a girl in this case. but that feeling were i would immediately vomit if i tried to roll out of bed, consumed me. at the same time i couldn't just lay there and pretend like nothing was happening, so my entire mind was divided. i wanted to get out and take action, but i couldn't really move. i'm just glad thats over with, and hopefully it'll be a long, long time before i ever have to experience that again. if ever. the weekend came in went. i wasted sunday by watching; -->the replacements -->austin powers: international man of mystery -->austin powers: goldmember -->the replacements that was eight hours where i didn't move from the couch. but man, that was eight hours well spent. the only thing i accomplished during the weekend, was i sent an email to my friend taylor. i did that sunday night, about 15 min before i went to bed. a weekend well spent. its monday, morning. and you know what i like about monday mornings? nothing. because i hate them. in my opinion, monday should just be made part of the weekend, because no one likes monday, and extending the weekend would be way cool. agreed? i'll start working on it. obligatory lyric of the post:
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some beach Jul 22nd, 2005 3:27:02 pm - Subscribe
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i'm upset. and pretty angry, but i don't know why. my weekend is already shot, and my morning wasn't too great. i hate it when and, the people that, correct my spelling. its like them blatantly saying, "i'm smart and you're a dumbass". when in reality i'm a whole lot cooler than they are. ok maybe not a whole lot, or at all. they're morons because they don't have any original thoughts of their own, so they point out somebody else's mistakes to cover up the fact that they're the dumbass. anyways somebody other than my boss corrected my spelling this morning, which set my on edge. then after this morning....to say i was pushed off the edge would be like calling the pacific ocean a puddle. in other news, i've decided to buy the movie cowboy bebop. i've never watched an episode, but i have a good feeling about it. i'll let you know how it turns out. and if any of you have seen it, reviews and opinions would be nice. goals for myself: - to learn how to sword fight (better) - buy cowboy bebop: the movie - turn in my last resume those are listed by priority. |
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gave up my body in bed Jul 21st, 2005 4:58:10 pm - Subscribe
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all for an empty hotel wasting words on lower cases and capitals my day started off with lots of offers, such as: A free phone has been reserved for you! 100+ Individuals are waitng to meet you! You've just won a free Apple IPod! Would you like to make 100k? Free Gift: Playstation Portable! New lower Mortage Rates! unfortunately, these are all lies. because i don't believe a single word they said. thus, they all went into the trash can. well, i've already got two readers. i'm surprised because i didn't think anybody would be reading this. i thought i would be screaming in space, but somebody heard me. don't get me wrong, i don't mind at all. i guess i should give you an idea of who i am. no, i'll leave it a mystery. its hot as crap right now. if you don't have a/c in your car, you will experience death. i'm starting to regret buying the my chemical romance cd. definitely not what i thought it would be. conclusions i've drawn: - lord of the rings is still awesome. - bright eyes is awesome - my chemical romance, not so awesome - filing cabneits are not a good pillow - never put on headphones without checking the sound level first - i talk to myself, and often laugh at my own jokes. if they're funny enough. i felt the need for random lines |
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i sleep in on tuesdays Jul 20th, 2005 7:07:06 pm - Subscribe
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there was lots of sadness and emo in my last post. more than i intended. but i'm not sorry
i want to move to sweden. somewhere in the alps. i want my house to be made out of wood, and to depend on my fire place for warmth, and lamps for light. right now at least. in a week i bet that'll change. it feels like running is slowly killing me. which i'm told, is what getting faster feels like. the majority of the miles are done on my own. i wonder how long i can keep this up. awhile i'm guessing. i turned in one application, and have the other on my desk right now. i'm just waiting for my schedule to come through, and then i'm all set. i have 8 hours of work everyday. i do nothing. expect play computer games and update my blog. i've done one of these so far. i don't have any deep thoughts right now. more just wondering. and hoping the next three hours fly by so i can get off work. can't wait |
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love is an excuse to get hurt, then to hurt Jul 19th, 2005 4:45:25 pm - Subscribe
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i can't imagine a day without music, my laptop, or a run. these are givens in my life, and i take them for granted. i'm a sucker for covers. listen to further seems forever cover 'say it ain't so' and finch cover 'mad world' any good song, played in acoustic form has the same affect. the ataris acoustic version of 'eight of nine' today. i will turn in both my applications. i will. turn in at least one of them. no doubt. no doubt in my mind. i probably will at least attempt to fill them out. i lied. i'm not even going to attempt to fill either out. the run with dr. cook brought nothing. waste of time? i don't think so. i made a new friend. waste of a run? absolutely xmidnightx, what do you think of taking back sunday?
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she could swing the trapeze Jul 18th, 2005 8:56:46 pm - Subscribe
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they could sleep on the floor i'm currently at work. but i'm not working. i'm blogging. my list of favorite bands right now (this list is susceptible to emotions, and will probably change many, many times).
they're new to me, and a good recovery from the burn i experienced listening to my chemical romance.
always a good choice. they have everything i want from: getting pumped up, to walking by
know your roots.
usually higer, i just don't feel like listening to them right now i'm running with dr. cook after work. chances of him offering me a scholarship: 0% my hopes of getting a scholarship: 100% screwed. he gives a scholarship to everybody, that goes into seminary. or graduate school. most of the time. i'm not exactly sure. i miss my anime shows. i just downloaded a bunch of wallpapers and cowboy bebop pictures. i might buy the movie. but i also need to buy grociers and clean up my room. and turn in my application. and apply for another job. globes and maps and i can't take this any more, i know that i can't take this any more, i can't this any more cause i know some day i'll see you walk out that door..... |
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hello darkness my old friend Jul 18th, 2005 2:53:25 am - Subscribe
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i've come to talk with you again ...and a vision was planted in my brain... still remains, within the sound of silence some blurps of my life;
this woke me up.
thats all for now. speaking of death, i almost hit a biker (albeit it a miniature one) and was almost hit by a car. it made my wonder what man kinds purpose here on earth is. i felt like writing a whole bunch, but not so much now. all i'm thinking about now is brushing my teeth and getting ready for tomorrow. run, work, run, grocery shop, try to make it to bed by 10. a sad existence. i know. it sucks right now. i almost bought cowbody bebop: the movie. i didn't because i was going in blind. and i know better than that. i wish i would of. |
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and your eyes have to do some raining, if you\'re ever gonna grow Jul 17th, 2005 2:56:53 am - Subscribe
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i think that any pre-college relationship is doomed. i'm going to guess that 99.9% of all high school relationships end in college or divorce. i listened to i'm wide awake, its morning. it was definitely an awesome cd. it takes some getting used to the singer's voice. and i'm not sure if i want to put it under the punk/alternative category or the rock/country one. there were some tunes in there that sounded like someone was getting after a banjo. i don't know the names of the songs, but especially listen to tracks: 1, 7, and 10 if you get a chance favorite song: the last one overall rating:8 i can't find the line between passion and obsession. as i talked myself out of running 3 miles this evening. it would have rounded me off at 100. i wish i was a wind bender like on the show avatar. make some noise. |
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its not ok, i promise Jul 15th, 2005 7:22:10 pm - Subscribe
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my review of three cheers for sweet revenge is as follows: the first time i heard my chemical romance was on fuse. they played helena, which i did like. after listening through the album a couple times my impression is that they're a garage band that signed with a record label. the lead singer, uses the same screaming voice through the whole cd. they didn't really use any different form of harmony besides the usual upbeat drum pace with a heavy guitar. i don't think they're very musically gifted and it did show in this album. i don't think i'd call them very creative either. they're more the extreme of taking back sunday but not in a good way. best songs on the album: helena, its not ok i promise, to the end overall rating of album: 6 |
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...Maybe... ...maybe I should just end this... ..once and for all... |
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West Memphis Please, I\'m begging you to stop praying for me Jul 10th, 2005 1:26:03 am - Subscribe
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 Go there^ I want to get a shirt. |