well im just home from waynes house! was cool!
last night we ordered an indian in, because elaine and rob were over, that was really nice.

wayne was really good to me last night, he snuggled up to me, kissed me in loads of places, he was really making an effort. i hope he knows i do appreciate it then we stayed up talking for ages, and his mommy told us off hehe. that hasn't happened in ages! lol!

then that night, i had some really bad dreams, except i only remember 1 of 3. i know i had three but i don't know what they were about... it was weird. but in the morning i was in such a mess... i was all jittery, but wayne looked after me, kissed and cuddled me, stroked my hair. he really helped me.

then before i went, we had an argument, i know he is right, and i told him, which was really hard... it felt horrible well, i hope things are okay now...? i really want to make things work, but he has to help me and be patient and work WITH me...
i don't think he understands what it feels like to be constantly criticised... about everything...
but enough about that, i know what i have to try and do, and i will try hard! lol

my head is POUNDING, i felt like i had an awesome nights sleep last night, turns out i hadn't because of these dreams
so im pretty tired

night all x