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xx Check Engine
Date: Dec 31st, 2004 11:35:33 am - Subscribe
Mood: Hopeful
Made Me Smile:: New lingerie

Whoo. SO, tonight I worked my normal hours, and Lana showed up, so we went to pick up Brittney, and then headed to UC to do some shopping and wandering at the great old Mart of Wals. I got some uber awesome lingerie, and I'm going back for something more later ^_^

On the way home though, my check engine light came on -whimpers and shudders at the thought of something being wrong with her baby- I still don't know what it is, so in a few hours I'm gonna call Nelson's and see if they can run the check, or if I need to take it to a mechanic, and if so, I'll take it to Brett's daddy.

I'm supposed to work until Midnight tomorrow night, but I *really* don't effin want to Apparently Hazel might be shutting the stored down considering Jules won't be there to work his shift (the Navy called him up, he's gone for 7 months). Since I had to cover Jule's shift for three effin hours before Michelle took over, I'm gonna try to talk Hazel into letting me go early so I can actually participate in the New Year's Eve activities..Hopefully she will, I mean, c'mon, like anyone wants to be working then!! We can shut down the store at 10 or 11, which will give me time to track down some friends and party a bit.

I haven't talked to Brett or seen him since Tuesday. So, basically, I've had no contact with him since he asked me back out o.O It really freakin' sucks. I doubt his mom is gonna let him out tomorrow night, all night long I mean, but if she does I'll scream. Maybe she'll let me go over there to ring in the New Year..that'd be uber awesome enough (granted, not as uber awesome as him being out all night..).

Anyway, it's getting close to time for me to head up to Huck's to talk to Hazel, and I still need to email Brett.

When the hell am I ever gonna sleep o.O
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xx Avenger
Date: Dec 28th, 2004 8:53:26 am - Subscribe
Mood: psyched
Made Me Smile:: Driving the Avenger

:squeal:

I test drove the Avenger today. Who needs men with that car..I will love it and pet it and hug it and...

:sqeal:

Anyway, so I drove the Avenger, and then 4 Malibu's. One was $2000 down, so that was out of the question. The second one had bad brakes, so that was out. The third made a bunch of racket and had a delayed start. The fourth had a flat tire and we didn't know it till we got on the highway o.O

The Avenger is MINE :mwhahahahhaha:

Prepare to be annoyed by my incessant talk about my bitchin' car.

I feel an uber annoying and even more uber painful migraine coming on o.O

So tomorrow, the plan is, 1) get up, 2) go to the bank, 3) start new account, 4) cash checks, 5) go buy Avenger, 6) go to Walmart to buy seat covers, wheel cover, and possibly floor mats. 7) Call insurance companies to get quotes. Pick insurance company. 9) If open, go to the DMV to get new license.

Oh..and between getting the car and going to Walmart, fill 'er up so I can check out the mpg.

:squealy squealy squeal:

She'll get up and go..big time ^_^ Tops out at 140 (HA! Like I'll ever drive 'er that fast!! Can't wreck my baby o.O).

Anyway, I gotta be up early, so I'm going to bed. After the DMV I still have to go by Emy's to take her her Christmas present, and by Brett's to drop of his parent's presents. If there's enough time after that, I'll go show my baby off ^_^ My mum is completely against the car, she has something against Mitsubishi engine's (actually Mick does, she's just parroting him). Sucks for her. My money, my car. Brett's dad is gonna hate me for it though He's gonna be my top pick for mechanic if she ever needs work, and Mits engines, since they are so compact, are hard to work on >_>

:more squealy squealy:



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xx Always Number 2
Date: Dec 24th, 2004 9:37:17 am - Subscribe
Mood: neglected
Made Me Smile:: -

It kills me how I get dressed up when I go to bed, just in case you come over, so you can think I'm even pretty in the morning.

It kills me how my heart pounds when you kiss me, and I get butterflies in my stomach.

It kills me how I'm so brutally honest with you, and all it takes is our eyes meeting for a split second, just enough for me to see the longing you have for the girl I used to be. The anti-drama, tons of fun, 'pretty' girl.

It kills me how we built and developed our relationship so strongly for it to just come to a screeching halt over a simple friendship.

It kills me even more that the simple friendship, aforementioned, has somewhat started building and developing in the same way as ours did, but at such a rushed rate.

It kills me how I think of you 24/7, and have never felt anything in even the slightest form of negative emotion towards you, other than frustration.

It kills me how you want me to wait, but that you can't tell me for how long, and you can't even be honest with me about why, even though I've never been anything short of honest with you on any topic we've discussed.

It just hurts. You say you want to extend the break because you think Derek likes me, and you don't want me to miss out, but I know the truth. You want to extend it because you want to find out if you like her or not.

Fine, find something out, but don't do it at my expense. Don't lie to me, don't hide the truth.

I know, no one ever gets in. Every question asked is answered with a simple "I don't know" or some other rather vague phrase which actually isn't simple at all..I just, all I want is to get in there, one time, just this once. I want to know the truth about it all, your feelings, me and her, what's going to happen to 'us'?

I love you too much to let go, but I love you so much, I don't want to hang on. I want you to be happy, you know that, even if it hurts me, even if I have to let you go, but at least you could be honest. Straightforward..meet me halfway here.
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xx Swollen Ear
Date: Dec 22nd, 2004 8:33:45 am - Subscribe
Mood: tired
Made Me Smile:: Waking up to see Brett here

Today was pretty good. Brett woke me up this morning, he came over to talk..I'm not too sure what was accomplished by our "talk" but I guess I'll find out xD

I get paid tomorrow, so I'm gonna go pick up everyone's presents and stuff. I have -alot- to do tomorrow. In the morning I have to go to the bank to pay my debt to them and re-open my account. Then I have the funeral to go to, and then work. Somewhere in there I need to fit in sleep and seeing my friends.

The wake was awkward today. I guess I always saw Mamaw as dying, and so it doesn't hurt as much. I almost had to leave though..it just reminded me so much of Cleek's wake.

My "grandfather" said absolutely nothing to me, and it's a damn good thing. For some reason at that moment I couldn't have hated him more. Him, crying over his mother's casket sent me into a frenzy of fury. That bastard didn't deserve a mother like Mamaw. He better be thanking the stars in heaven that I didn't announce his wrong doings to the entire family right then and there. I wanted to.

Anyway. Work was ok, same old same old.

I'm gonna try to get some rest.

Wish, Dream, Love.

xx Kendra
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xx My Wildest Dreams.
Date: Dec 21st, 2004 7:46:55 am - Subscribe
Mood: love
Made Me Smile:: Brett asking me out

My wildest dreams have come true.

Me and Brett are back together -squeak-

I can't effin believe it ^_^ He asked me out tonight while I was at work, of course, he played around with me about it for awhile, but finally, he asked and of course my answer was an all to quick "Yeah!!!"

-squeaky squealy girly noise-

The whole deal with Eric (which everyone took the wrong way, I wanted a new friend, not a new boyfriend), is completely over. He obviously wanted more than friendship, and that defenitely wasn't matching up with my wants.


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