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Yellomoose
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| Yeah, I've mainly been bloggin on myspace. But I'm postin em on here too. So ya, tha'z why all the dates are the same lolz. But ya, I might get more into emoblogging, maybe not. Dunno. |
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Yellomoose
Joy and Bitterness May 6th, 2006 5:13:43 pm - Subscribe
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Tuesday, January 31, 2006 Meh . . . ya know how sometimes you jus have one of those days? Ya . . . I did today. So I'm still havin to deal with the thing with Bethany. For those of you who don't know, she got me to tell her something, then totally twisted it around and took it way out of context and lied about me in front of the popular group. And she says she didn't do it coz she wanted to look good in front of them. But she couldn't give me a good reason of why she went straight to them. Weird huh? So ya, most people don't understand why I'm so insulted by this. Basically, I hate the whole popular thing with a flaming passion. It's so stupid and shallow. If you're one of those people who are desperate to be popular, get a life. Seriously. It's stupid. Basically, take all these shallow qualities, such as good looks, ability to play sports, enough money to wear $100 brand names, and often throw in sluttiness. Then throw out all good qualities, such has a good relationship with God or integrity or kindness. What do you get? Popular people. Sure, not all popular people are bad. From my experience, there are a few who aren't all that bad. But when someone strives to become something this shallow, I find it completely repulsive. This is why I'm so bitter with her. She stabbed me in the back to look good in front of these people. I hate that. I hate it so much. I'm at the point where I don't want to see her, talk to her, or even know her. Call me bitter, but when someone steps all over me jus to look good infront of the very thing I hate, it totally wipes out the friendship. Honestly, I don't see forgiveness in the near future. She'd have to admit that she was wrong without pointing fingers at others, and probably change her life. She hasn't done any of that. She ran up to me and home coming and said "sorry!" and gave me a quick hug and ran off real quick. Anger burned inside me. She expects me to be all cool with her stabbing me in the back when she runs up to me and says sorry real quick? No. Sorry, but . . . no. That's not how things work with me. Especially since she told me two nights before that I was being "pathetic" for being mad at her and I needed to "get over it," and best of all, "It wasn't that big of a deal". That is so screwed up. She came up to my group of friends at lunch, and I became silent, and since I'm the main one to talk in our group, a long awkward pause continued. Then she, and a few others tried to get me to talk. So ya, I talked. They didn't really like what I said, but hey, they got what they asked for. I basically told her that I was still mad and what she did was screwed up. Then we argued for a few minutes and she left. She came into my group at lunch today, and didn't say much, and I said nothing when she was around. Sometimes I wish I could jus got total goth . . . eye liner, fingernails, total black, spikes, the whole deal (minus the lipstick, that's too far). I dunno, I jus want her to leave me alone. Basically never talk to me again. I don't want to be her friend. I'm tryin to get her to see that without bein mean about it, but I'm not sure how. A song comes to mind by Skillet . . . "It's eatin me away, I said to God. It's rotting in my mind, it's like a cancer. Is there any way, any way to numb the nothingness? I need to get away, it's eating me away" I jus want this problem to go away, but I know it won't, no matter what I do. So ya . . . tha'z pretty much my life lately. At least the bad part. Other than that, I've been pretty good. I'm doin a whole lot better in Algebra and Chem. I was feelin crappy about the whole bethany thing during the basketball game at school right before we got out, but Robert and Hil helped me feel a whole lot better. Thanks guys. haha I should hecka be in bed right now. I gotsta get up an hour early for worship team. Ah, life's gonna suck in the morning hahaha. I've said that the past 3 nights. Somehow it always seems much more humorous then night before hahaha. I'm thinkin about quittin worship team at school again. It's more of a burden, not because I hafta get up early, I don't mind that at all. It's jus how fake it is. We're supposed to be leaders, and yet we have some of the biggest hypocrites in it. Kinda discouraging really . . . but ya, my quitting won't help it get better, so I'm thinkin I'll stay. Ah, gosh, I'm goin strapless tommorrow for chaple. No! On my guitar you pervert! lolz, my strap got stolen las fri . . . that made me hecka mad. I can't dance while I play screamo and metal lolz. I swear, ppl are so messed up. They stole the strap off my guitar. Who would steal a guitar strap? I put it in Mr. Econ's room where I thought it'd be safe, but I guess it's not. So ya, maybe I'll put it in the principle's office or keep it with me . . . I have no idea what else to do to keep it safe. I'm goin snow shoein on Sat with Venture club lolz, it's that thing where you walk on tennis raquets in deep snow haha, should be fun. I'm gonna push Hilary over at least 9 times haha. Oh! I hecka got to talk to Megan for over an hour tonight! It was awesome. I feel bad for her, havin to live with her dad and stuff. She took her purity ring off to wash cars las week, and her dad asked her if she was having sex. Jus stuff like that that drives her up the wall, around the corner, and back down again lolz. But ya, he took her out to lunch the other day and said that he learned with megan's older sister that it can't be his way or the highway, and that he has to let her have some input. So he might have gained an ounce of respect from me . . . assuming he really meant that. So ya, I'm hopin that things will get better for her. haha . . . it's weird how sometimes I can look at the whole rumor thing and just laugh. Dag, people were spreading rumors that I liked Megan las year, and I had to deal with those. Then, this year, when it becomes semi true, they say "oh no! We're gonna spread OTHER rumors that aren't true!" lolz, people are screwed up. But in a funny way haha. But ya, I wouldn't say I "like" Megan. I dunno what it is. I know it's not a crush tho, I've had crushes, and this is nothing like it. Like that thing with Meza. That was jus dumb lolz, and I totally regret that. But ya, this is a totally different feeling than the thing with Meza. I can't explain it. It's awesome tho. I mean sure, Meza was always on my mind. Megan isn't on my mind constantly, but she is alot. I can't explain it, but I don't think this is a dumb crush. It's got to be more than that. The greeks have like 2 or 3 words for "love". One is a love between two friends. Two guy friends, two girl friends, or a girl and a guy. Then there is the love like between a husband and a wife love. I know it's not the husband and a wife love, but . . . I dunno. I love alot of people . . . but I dunno, this is different. I can't explain it. I jus wanna see her. Wool ya, tha'z been my life lately. Leave me a comment. |
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Yellomoose
Energy Drinks, Pedals, and Movies May 6th, 2006 5:15:25 pm - Subscribe
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Thursday, February 09, 2006 Wow . . . I got so much to blog about! k, so like, yesterday Thomas decided to make me into a lab rat. haha, he told me that he was gonna give me a Full Throttle, a Full Throttle Fury, and a Red Bull. So I come to school and stuff, and he doesn't show up. But then he did! YAY! So I drank it all quickly. First period (econ): I started shaking. By the end of the class I was violently shaking, and couldn't hold still to save my life. In between first and second period, I took a few laps around the precious moments building. It was sweet. Second period (Sign language): I was still violently shaking, and my pulse was about 600 beats per minute. THEN, this other side affect that I've never had came in. My eyes dialated. WEIRD. I'm sittin there and my eyes were all squinty coz the room was so bright. Oh, we had a quiz too, and I missed half of them haha. I didn't deserve to miss half of them tho, coz the drawings of the signs were crap and looked like other stuff. Third period (yearbook): k, yrbk is on the other side of the campus. So I open the door and walk outside, and the sun decides to burn a hole threw my forehead threw my eyes. It didn't feel good, and ppl gave me funny looks as I shaked myself to yb class. So I walk in and sit down. I'm the financial manager, so I don't have much to do this time of the year. So I sit there and shake and organize my backpack for like 20 mins, then allavasudden, caffiene totally turns off, and I'm wasted. Seriously, I was sooo close to falling asleep in yrbk and Chem class. It was crazy. So ya, I was dead the whole day. Although I'd have random sparatic twitches once in a while . . . ya, it was fun. Oh, cept for the part about my head wanting to explode after the caffiene wore off. So there ya go Thomas. Symptoms: Splitting headache, violent shaking, sparatic twitching, sudden urges to run around buildings, eyes dialating, and extreme loss of energy. haha it was FUN! |
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Yellomoose
w00t! May 6th, 2006 5:19:19 pm - Subscribe
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Sunday, February 12, 2006 Ya . . . so we had my birthday party las Fri. I don't like the sound of that. "birthday party". I typed "bday party" the first time and decided that that was worse. I dunno, "birthday party" is like when we were 6 and had cake and ice cream and played pin the tail on the Kat. Er, donkey. But anyways, I mus say, it was pretty much awesome. I had Cory Michael Andrew and Alex come over and do stuff. We played TS III for a while, then talked about player Fred and stuff. We went to Red Robin, and my dad told the server person that it was my . . . date of birth . . . haha so they came over and sang to me. So I put my hood on and started hardcore dancing, doin the lawnmower. It was pretty sweet. It very good tho, coz thier beat was hecka fast and I didn't wanna smack anyone in the face. But it was still awesome! Theeeeen we went home and played guitar and had a few danged females come over to take pixels of us TPin my house so we could put it in the yrbk lolz. So ya, then we looked up funny videos long into the night (I'm gonna make a blog with a buncha videos we looked up lolz) and took some quizzes that were hecka funny then some other ones that totally creeped us out. "Encarta" haha. Weeeeeeeird. So that was cool. Then we went to bed and got up. We actually went to bed at 1 and got like a full 7 hours of sleep, (embarassing, I know) which was crazy, until you realize we had no energy drinks around. So we got up and ate breakfast and played TS III more for hours and hours. It was coo. So then ppl went home and my parents and sister left me and went to Chico. I would have gone with them, but they were goin to a basketball game so I made some lame excuse and told them I had a sign language thing I had to go to (actually it wasn't lame, I had to go to it coz it was 50% of my final). So that worked out well. I went to the ASL thing and talked to a deaf person. She seemed kinda irritated at me, but heck, it's half my final grade! So I finished my interview thing. So then me'n Hil hung out at the mall and went to Hot Topic. I bought a bicycle neck chain, it was pretty sweet. Wool it still is acutally. Oh, I bought some "Vamp" too haha. It's like a Red Bull basically, but cooler. It says "not suitable for children and mortals sensitive to caffiene" haha. It made me giggle, so I bought it and am gonna stick it in my locker. OH. I saw some new stuff in there too, I'll hafta tell a select few of you losers about it haha jk. So ya, tha'z my life lately. My pot pie is ready, I'll talk to you people later. |
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Yellomoose
Myspace is a CULT May 6th, 2006 5:22:28 pm - Subscribe
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Tuesday, February 21, 2006 Ya, so I have a week off. My school didn't give us presidents day off or labor day or somethin, so they jus cram it all into one week. It's kinda nice, until you realize all your friends are at school, which totally blows your social life and makes it so that you can't call or hang out with your friends. No one is on myspace or AIM, except Mary, but she's busy homeschooling. Dag, you all need to be sick this week. Even guitar has it's limits. Good thing TIme Splitters doesn't haha. Or at least I haven't found em. So ya, if any of you are home for some awesome reason, please call me up. I'm BORED. Now since I am so bored, I shall state my position on myspace. Myspace is a cult. It's an evil cult, and Kat sucked me in. I would make her pay, but I'm enjoying this too much. And, single handedly, I have managed to suck in four other members to the cult: Andrew, Michael, Liz, and Hilary. MUAHAHAHA! So ya, myspace is basically a virus that is going to suck America dry of it's recources. Who ever said that Bush is the most powerful man on the planet? No way. Sure, Bush can launch nuclear cruise missles to pretty much any place on the planet. But hey, Tom owns myspace. Which means he owns me, along with the 50 million (ish) other people. Do you know how much power 50 million power is?! Basically, if Tom says boycott McDonalds, then they're pretty much screwed. BOOM. They jus lost 50 million customers. Actually, about 49.99999 million, coz I don't eat at McDonalds anyways. Cept pretty much everyone I know doesn't eat at McDonalds. Cept Jai, but she doesn't count. So how the heck do they stay in business?! Wool anyways, back to myspace. So Tom has millions of minions concentrated in the US, and sparatic other places like England and Australlia and Uzbeckistan. And she has Angela in China/Africa lolz. So if Tom wanted to make a certain president win, all's he'd hafta say is "I'm shutting myspace down unless President _____ wins. Then, the third of the people on myspace above voting age would vote for him. And I'm pretty sure the other two thirds would go on riots or somethin to make sure he won. And the other president would prolly get assassinated. 50 million zombies doing whatever Tom tells them . . . wow, I'm so glad I'm not one of them! Oh wait. nm. So ya, if myspace keeps spreading like it is, it'll take over the world. Like seriously, Tom will rule the world, and we'll change it from "Earth" to somethin dumb like "Myspace Dot Com" and when someone gets pregnant and has a kid, they're not giving birth, they're jus "inviting" someone. Speed dating would be called "browsing" and families would turn into "groups". The mall will turn into one big Forum. America's next top Model *cough*hooker*cough* would be called "Rank". If you say somethin nice to someone, you'll give them "Kudos". And everyone would have a prefered list. Wool everyone has that anyways lolz. So ya, that is the future of the world, as long as Myspace takes over before the preps do. Dag, I hope they don't join forces. If that happens, everything I know and love will perish, and I swear, I will avenge it. Myspace, I mean. Wool ya, that successfully entertained me for what, 15 mins or so? Tha'z cool, I'm goin back to Time Splitters. |