I flippin HATE jealousy
Date: May 8th, 2005 4:42:53 am - Subscribe
Mood: my mood? I'll explain in the blog . . .
It's jus sooo messed up. So . . . Fri night was interesting. I went to the play with michael, which was mondo w00tfist. So we set stuff up and stuff, jammed on our guitars for about 30 mins. It was w00ty! lolz! w00ty! So what does this have to do with jealousy? I'm gettin to it . . .
So we went down to the entrance (which is on the way to where we stashed out guitars) and we see Megan and Hill . . . and I wasn't to thrilled about that, coz I haven't seen Michael in mons and we wanted to jam on our guitars in the second grade class room. So we talked for a while, then allavasudden, the mexican walked by. Liz, my crush, not Michael. Coz Michael is mexican too. So she said hi and I said hi and she walked off and I got a big ole smile on my face like I usually do. So Megan and Hil usually laugh when they see this, but tonight, Megan jus rolled her eyes. Noticeably. So I'm like, whoa, what was that about? And she said it was nothin.
So Michael and I (dodging my two staulkers) helped set up summore, then when the play started, Megan and Hil found us, and we sat in the back. Megan said a few sarcastic things about the mexican (Liz, not that other mexican), including somethin about how she had some huge (not jus big, but mondo happy type) crush on this other freshman guy, but she didn't wanna tell me who, coz she was 'sworn to secracy' and she was afraid I would get jealous. Which is BS, esp considering all the crap I hafta go through with Alex bein jealous coz Megan likes me. So I didn't push, one, coz I don't push if someone doesn't want me to know somethin, and two, coz it's a rumor, which I don't mess with. Heck, rumors and gossip has humiliated me enough this year. Dag, I hate havin my whole life public. Actually it's not my life, what is said and what is true is 90% of the time way different. But w/e. So where was I? Oh ya, so she was dissed the mexican several times durin the night, and finally after the play, she did it again, and so I asked her what was up. Coz even tho she told me she would never get jealous, and hasn't in the 6 mons or so, this really looks like jealously. So I asked her about it, and she said 'I'm jealous, but I'm not jealous.' So I'm like . . . ok . . . explain . . . and she told me that she wasn't in the mood. So I'm all confuzzled about wha'z goin on. I'm wonderin if like, she really jus doesn't wanna talk about it or if she hasta think of an excuse or if she wants to wait for the weekend to be over to . . . cool off her jealously or somethin. So . . . ya . . . tha'z pretty much it. Oh ya, about my mood? I can't say I'm sad, coz I'm really not. I can't say I'm angry, coz it's more of a frustration. But even more than frustration, I'm jus . . . disgusted. I hate jealousy. Heck, I don't think I've ever had any jealousy whatsoever with the mexican, and even if I had, I woulda shot it down right away. Coz when girls get jealous of me, I get weirded out. So ya, I'm not sure what to do with this one . . . I've been wantin to spend less time with Megan, but I haven't been to sure where to go. But ya . . . things between Megan and I will not be the same . . . and it's interesting, coz I'm actually kinda relieved. No more rumors, no more teasing, no more harassment from Alex (I hope), I think it'll be better this way. Like, spendin less time with her. So ya, I feel . . . disgusted . . . and kinda betrayed to, coz she said she wouldn't get jealous. And I'm not sure what to end this blog with . . . so . . . *ends the blog*
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celebrate - May 08th, 2005 |
lana - May 09th, 2005 |
! So.. alex likes megan, and megan likes you? but you like liz, who just might like a freshman ( and the freshman might like liz... BUT we don't know that part of this story 
) That is sooo confuzzeling! ( i love that word hope celebrate dosen't mind if I steal it) Good luck! 
guitars so rock. i wish i could play but i don't have the determination to stick with learning to. oh well. BTW you are forgiven for not updating 
. yellomoose - May 09th, 2005 |
roprisdumb - May 09th, 2005 |
