yellomooses Aeonity Blog

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Tue, 28 Apr 2009 07:06:28 -0400

4/22/09 Past week has been interesting. I went and talked to a couple mormons yesterday, they seemed interesting. Basically they said that the book of mormon is not an addition to the Bible, but they didn't say it was part of it either. It's mostly about how after Jesus died and was resurrected, he came to "the americas" and taught the natives a... Read More

Cut

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 09:56:01 -0400

Not really sure how to start this. It's more of an emotional thing than a physical thing. It doesn't make me feel better as much as people say. It's more accurate to say that it makes me feel nothing. I am numb. Sometimes for a few hours, and if I'm lucky, the rest of the night. But there is a difference between feeling nothing and feeling peace. P... Read More

Yes!

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 11:33:05 -0400

I've been busy. No clue where to begin. Today is day 103, woot me! I was praying today in chapel at SU and just talking with Him about how sexually frustrated I am. I felt Him telling me to strive for Him even more. I only have a little bit more time before she enters my life, and when that happens, my spiritual life will not be my own. When... Read More

Hello, Day 70

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 12:37:09 -0500

I suppose I'm well overdue for an update. Another girl has entered my life. Girl I work with. She's beyond gorgeous, makes easily twice as much as I do, and is 23. But she doesn't exactly hold the same beliefs as I do and doesn't practice abstinence. So if we did end up together I'd give myself less than a week before the whole abstinence thing ... Read More

I want something new

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 02:02:46 -0500

I have a lot of things on my mind, and I need to write them out so I can deal with them logically and one at a time. Biola: I want to go next semester. But it's probably a better idea to finish my AA then transfer there rather than just dropping everything I'm in the middle of and signing up. After this semester I'll have nearly 60 units, but a ... Read More

Day 62

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 22:28:39 -0500

So apparently when I'm not close to God, I avoid blogging too, since that forces me to look at my life from a spiritual perspective. I have quite a bit to catch up on. I strayed from Him. I just got busy and lazy and stopped journalling for several days. I was watching a movie a couple times and I should have looked down at certain parts, but di... Read More

Deanna

Tue, 17 Feb 2009 17:38:58 -0500

Sweet girl. So after day 50 I backed off quite a bit. I didn't want to get too close and lead her on or anything. I didn't actually see her until last night. We were hangin out at Jay's house. Movie night or something. It was more like hang out time with a movie in the background. There were half a dozen people there, and the only one I really ... Read More

Day 50

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 03:55:45 -0500

Well, it's 12:01. Today was day 50. No sexual contact with anyone or anything. I honestly never really thought I would get to this point. I've realized that I'm not invincible. As long as I stay close to Him, fighting temptation becomes much easier, but if I leave His area of protection, I can be swept away as easily as I was a few months ago. ... Read More

Is abstinence healthy

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 13:59:56 -0500

So I was in my psychology class, and my professor was talking about how we live in a very sexually repressed society. I also remember reading somewhere that sex is generally healthy and good for stress relief. So this got me thinking... is a life of abstinence truly healthy? On the other hand, my past semi-sexual experiences have fucked me ... Read More

Day 48

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 12:49:21 -0500

Past few days have been ok. I realized last night that I'm slowly slipping back into that lazy stage where I do nothing productive and don't listen for God. I did nothing yesterday. Nothing. So I decided today would be different. I did some homework this morning, and now I'm gonna go meditate for a bit before school at 11. I hate tuesdays. It's... Read More