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Foot seems to be healing well I think. My roommate and I went for donuts yesterday which is about a 20 min walk ...in shoes. Probably wasn't a good idea, probably only damaged it more. But I can feel it healing.

Sunday night when i go back to work, i have to do it with that guy...the manager is gonna talk to him about how he asked me out and whatnot, so I'm sure it'll be awkward ...we'll see I guess. I just want the whole thing to go away.

On a lighter note, my paycheck yesterday was 150$s more than I expected, put a smile on my face =)

Haven't slept in 24 hours now, I'm making quite a routine out of the whole barely sleeping thing. Very excited, my roommates are going to their family's houses for the holidays so i get the apartment to myself the whole time.
Yes, i know many will and have said their concern for how i'll be having a lonely christmas. But let it be known, each roommate had invited me for the family gathering, but i can't leave town either way, for i work sunday. Either way, feel not sorry for me! I love being alone. Is that weird? I will have my cat though, and the chinese food joint across the street =) it'll be a lovely christmas.

A woman at work got me a christmas card. Now I will always say I don't like christmas, don't get me anything, bla bla. But being at work, a fairly new employee who works nights with little chat between coworkers, I have not made many friends, this is fine. At this time of year, everyones joking around and trading gifts while i just sit there and watch. The card brightened my day even if she got one for everyone too.
The difference you made, you'll never know my friend.
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Mood: insecure

marlene from that job that makes you sleep back to the thoughts that keep you awake Dec 21st, 2007 5:21:14 pm - Subscribe
My foot is dead. I cant move it without tear jerking pain, let alone walk on it. And I just toughed 8 hours of work, standing in the uniform shoes that hate me to have my roommate say im faking it.

Please Mr. Roommate.
Look at these blisters, look at the pus ...tell me now I'm lying.

I just didn't want to waste the bandaids i had so perfectly on to show him.

On another note. I quit my job about a week and a half ago, or something, and I'm scheduled the rest of this week. I figured fine, i'll do it, get another paycheck, whatever. They posted next weeks schedule ...guess who's working before and after christmas? Yep ...
Me. W.t.f.
Oh well, I've been talking to my mom about moving and it looks as though it'll be postponed for an unknown amount of time, I may as well be making money while i wait and see.

My roommate deleted all my songs off his computer, is it fucked up that made me cry? Its kinda weird, I had it all saved because i wanted to burn it, I even brought blank cds, many of them, when i moved in, but my roommate used the last 3.
700 songs just gone ...man, musics like my life. That's just fucked. If theres any good way to end a bad day, well, this sure as hell is not it.

Man, I can't even walk right.

Just shoot me now
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Mood: disoriented
Current Tune: Playlist Not Found

marlene If you need me, you can call me on the road Dec 18th, 2007 6:33:47 pm - Subscribe
I have to work tonight.
I haven't slept in 48 hours.
Hopefully coffee will do the trick ...lots and lots of coffee.

Not much to report to be honest. I've finally discussed with my mom plans for the big move. So perhaps a date is soon coming that I know when to be prepared for.
Heh, me be prepared. It doesn't matter, I won't start getting ready until the last minute is humanly possible to get it done anyway.

My roommate woke me at 7am this morning making waffles and I swear, he tries to be as loud as possible (i sleep in the living room, by the way). This sucked, especially when you take into account the fact I no longer have an eternal clock, so falling asleep isn't as common to me as it once was. I fell asleep at 5:30am. Yay! An hour and a half of sleep. So ...it's 1:30pm now and my other roommate is in a cleaning mood. Vaccuuming, moving everything, in and out of each room of the apartment.
What is sleep?
Don't know if i'll make it. Maybe i should just call in sick. I need to quit this week anyway for my moving plans ...
Sleep ...
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Mood: defeated
Current Tune: Camera Obscura - Alaska

marlene I'll never do you no harm Dec 14th, 2007 2:00:02 pm - Subscribe
Is it just me, or are a lot of entries advertisements of somesort?
Keep clickin ones on front page to read.

Weight Loss.
Learning how to play poker.
Vacation packages.

Not that i mind too much, just wanna see real entries. =(


Anyway ....

I'm quitting my job tomorrow, thats final. I'm getting out of this situation, this weekend is my last. I get no sleep and nights are killing me. My coworker makes me awkward. Customers are complete assholes over simple mistakes. I need a better job.

I need my hometown. I need my mom.

I should call her tonight. Get it organized, start packing, maybe get a date. I should go back to school.

I hope I find better work in Barrie, I hope all my old best friends are still there and not sour about how I left them all 2 and a half years ago.
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Mood: insomniac
Current Tune: The Beatles - Oh Darling

marlene I want you, I want you so bad Dec 13th, 2007 12:54:48 pm - Subscribe
Been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. Last night, I got incredibly tired at 1am, which is weird for me. So I went to sleep, woke again at 4 for two hours, then fell back asleep for another hour. Woke up and couldn't fall back asleep even though my eyes were heavy and my head was cloudy.

I don't know. Maybe sleep isn't that important.

I'm scared, I never called the guy at work when i said i would. I hope he won't be mad. Would it sound like bullshit if i said i lost his number?
I hope not. It's the only excuse I can think of.
My horoscope kind of got me today.

Someone may be shaking up your world today, Marlene, and this might be a difficult pill to swallow. Realize that this is exactly what you need right now to get your lazy bones into gear. Don't look to others to try to change the situation. Change what you can change - yourself. If you feel like a victim, adjust your way of thinking. Only you can control your reactions and feelings in regards to a particular situation.

Maybe this will be the push i need to start packing and get well on my way to moving home. Yes home. I havent had one of those in what feels like forever. Maybe things will make sense when i get there.

Or maybe they'll make less.

I need to worry less about outcomes and just dive in.
Like I did before I was an adult.


I told you 'bout strawberry fields, you know the place where nothing is real. Well heres another place you can go, where everything flows.
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Mood: burned
Current Tune: The Beatles - Glass Onion

marlene You stood there so brave Dec 12th, 2007 6:06:14 am - Subscribe
So a guy at work asked me out.
He has 2 kids and looks as if he's just over the age of 30.

For those of you who don't know.
I'm childless and just a few months over 20.

I work nights with him alone usually ...

If i say no, he won't be too kind to me.

If i say yes ...things could get awkward.


I think I'd rather be ignored.


Oh, is anyone else having a problem in CP? The dropdown menus arent accessable for me. I can't add Friends, edit profile or templates unless from first window.
Is something wrong with me? ='(
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Mood: eh
Current Tune: Neutral Milk Hotel - Three Peaches

marlene It's a morning evacution Dec 10th, 2007 2:14:52 am - Subscribe
Another sleepless night, another wasted day on sleeping.
If any of you are ever offered a nightshift, whether you get more money for it or not, do not take it.

Got to go to work in an hour and I'm dreading it. I tried to get a hold of my mom this evening, but no answer, so I'm going to try and call again then write an email if still no answer. I need to get out of here, I think.

Alas, I must get some things finished with my day before it starts feeling like my life is all work, no play.

'i'm looking in on the good life i might be doomed never to find. without a trust or flaming fields am i too dumb to refine?'
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Mood: tired
Current Tune: The Shins - New Slang

marlene Where oh where to begin Dec 9th, 2007 12:35:41 pm - Subscribe
I had to use a default template cause apparently my custom one i thought was amazing looked like butchered, yet colorful poo on other pcs. Maybe I'll get my HTML skill back at some point.

So much catching up to do but I'll try not to bore you all!
Been through my hardest breakup ever 2 months ago. Left me more broken than anything I've ever experienced, but life goes on and fighting is something I've learned to do and will always do. I've met someone great now so we'll see how that goes =)

I'm bunking with a couple friends these last few months workin a midnight shift that I would believe to be killing me. I never get sleep and my roommates always need money from me. An opportunity to move in with my mother has come up though which i think would maybe be just what the doctor ordered~
She said she'll put 1000$s into buying me a laptop if I come home. Don't know if she's trying to fix her past mistakes with material items ...but i need a laptop and I can't even describe how much I long for that feeling of home again.

Things have been crazy within the family and some things have happened that I believe have led my mom to try her hardest to fix the distance between us. My brother had overdosed on heroin over the summer, the doctors say he cheated death. He's lost 80% of his hearing and I'm not sure if it'll save our family or break it further. But as they say, nothing brings people together like a great tragedy (or something?)

No need to be sad though! I have independence, I have my health (i think) and i have the love of my life in my lap. My amazing cat Spectre.

This time I mean it, i'll try and update as much as possible! I've missed you guys and this site is still as amazing as ever.
I <3 you Aeonity. (Emoblog for you oldschoolers like me)
-Marlene
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Mood: euphoric
Current Tune: Kind of Like Spitting - The Thrill of the Hunt

marlene Don't know which way to go. Aug 30th, 2006 5:05:55 pm - Subscribe

The nerves are kicking in. I'm getting nervous about everything. Moving home, can I do it. If I'm getting nervous about this ..what about London. At least I have something waiting there.

Best friend might get me a job at Petsmart. That'd be nice.

I wish these feelings would ease up.

oh! Where has all my friends gone.
cry.gif
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Mood: unlucky
Current Tune: Chantal Kreviazuk - All I Can Do

marlene Long time no see. Aug 27th, 2006 4:26:00 pm - Subscribe
I wanna move to England.
I wanna make my dreams come true. I hope I can make it. Will know in a couple months.

Wish me luck.


I'm moving back with my mom. That's my first step. happy.gif
I never wanted something so bad, I hope I'm strong enough!
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Mood: sunny

marlene Detention! Jun 15th, 2006 1:42:57 pm - Subscribe
So ...I've been skipping too much school. It just can't be helped. So today I must serve a detention. I'm debating whether or not to skip it.
Only 3 days left of school, they can't do much to me 'cept more detentions ...

Damn school making life more complicated than it really needs to be.
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Mood: flashy
Current Tune: Bright Eyes feat Britt Daniels - You Get Yours

marlene Stupid me! Jun 12th, 2006 3:07:27 pm - Subscribe
So ...I'm very disappointed in myself. I'm gonna miss the Bright Eyes concert due to lack of smarts.

The show is today ...and I thought it was next month. I thought it was may!

I knew I should have invested $2 into that cute puppy calendar.

/whine.
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Mood: sad
Current Tune: Radiohead - You and Whose Army?

marlene Theres no hell when you die, so don't look so worried. Jun 11th, 2006 2:24:56 pm - Subscribe
So ..I'm thinkin of changing up my template. But it's been so long I've forgotten all my html codes that I ever knew. Not that that was much. I suppose I have all the time I need to figure it out again. We'll see.

So, I wanna make my entries more exciting, since I've kind of been obsessing over my game and thats kinda ...boring. Heh.

So, Friday I went to see Cirque De Soleil which was pretty neat. Quite exciting stuff. I wish I could do even half the things all those extremely talented people could do.

So I am counting down the days until June 12th. For Bright Eyes will be preforming 45 minutes away and you can count me in! Will be my first real concert and I can't wait. Though ...I should probably get the tickets now before they sell out ...just need to find someone to go with. I'm sure I can ...hopefully.
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Mood: expectant
Current Tune: Bright Eyes - Light Pollution

marlene Doesn't sound much like me Jun 8th, 2006 10:02:45 pm - Subscribe
Quiz Me
Marlene was
a Humble Butler
in a past life.

Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me
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Mood: sleepless
Current Tune: Cursive - Art is Hard

marlene The bottom line. Jun 8th, 2006 11:41:00 am - Subscribe
Is the dollar signs and the big bright lights.

Desaparecidos, you have such a hold on me. I can't tell if it's the lyrics, the voice or the beat. Perhaps its just the perfect mix of the three.
I shouldn't question what I love anymore.

So, I need to get a hair cut pretty badly. It's starting to look a tad ...flat. Plus I should dye it, but I really don't want to. Who cares if my roots show?

I'm so very excited. Though I have been every night this week and got my hopes crushed. My online adaptor, I've been told, was going to be in my hands every night this week and yet it's always failed. So I'm really, really, really hoping tonights the night.
I can't have my hopes crushed again!
Please, please, please!
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Mood: sexy
Current Tune: Desaparecidos - $$$$

marlene Hmm. I am gaining some bad habits. Jun 4th, 2006 4:17:28 pm - Subscribe
Turns out I am still heavily addicted to my MMO. I have bought a new ps2 that can run the game and all I need is a wireless online adaptor which I hope to gain soon. Then, I will be able to play day and night ...but I won't of course.

I'm reading A Clockwork Orange once again for my english ISP. It's funny, I love the book but need to read it so much before I can memorise all the slang.
I will though, and then I shall use it in my common language and confuse people for fun.
And I will get to rent the movie for an essay I must write! Contrast and compare the book in the movie. Easy marks, because I ever so much enjoy the story!
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Mood: joyed
Current Tune: John Vanderslice - Up Above the Sea

marlene Clean up, thats what I need. May 21st, 2006 4:04:15 am - Subscribe
So ...today has been pretty uneventful.
Woke up ...went on the computer for a few hours.
When over to friend's house.
Came home.
Played FFXI.
And now here I am.

I'm kind of bored ...hopefully the night will pick up soon.
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Mood: dandy

marlene What a week I'm having May 19th, 2006 3:48:18 pm - Subscribe
So, looks like I may be posting a fair bit in the next few days.

It's been very upsetting, I got this MMORPG, and I love it, been playing for about a month now ...but ...it might be taken off the computer.

I may be forced to quit. I hate this ....I love the game so, so much. Now I need to save up money to buy a new ps2 and ps2 version.

Better start saving.

*sigh*
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Mood: vague

marlene Absolutely astounding. May 18th, 2006 6:58:51 pm - Subscribe
Horoscopes ...they're so ...unbelievable.

Libra
September 22 - October 22
The desire to get together with a love partner may be frustrated today by circumstances beyond your control, dear Libra. Work or family obligations may get in the way. If it's your partner who has to beg off, don't get upset and start dealing out blame; this won't help the situation, and might put your friend on the defensive. Just make arrangements to meet another day. Think of it as an opportunity to use absence to make the heart grow fonder!

This fits me in so many ways ...I can't even begin to describe.
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Mood: freaked
Current Tune: The Good Life - Leaving Omaha

marlene Sigh. May 7th, 2006 1:57:37 pm - Subscribe
Zander and I broke up.

Can you believe it?

I can't.

I'm not really sad, it's weird.



I dunno.
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Mood: done