Kissing
Date: Feb 19th, 2005 2:23:06 pm - Subscribe
Mood: nasty
Let's talk about kissing.
Have you ever wondered why we kiss each other? Whether it's a quick peck on the cheek of a friend or a deep-arousing kiss that's a lead up to something hot, we all kiss.
Though I'm an expert on kissing (ehm.. 
) I'm also curious to know why.
I read an article about kiss that the custom of humans kissing probably derived from primitive times, with food being transferred from the mother's to her baby's mouths (tell me if I'm wrong, but this is one of the technique to get "HOT" 
)
The article also told us that sometime during the sixth century, the acceptance of kissing between adults became obvious in France, where figure dancing was the fashion and each dance was sealed with a kiss! This led to kissing becoming accepted as a way of adults to express their affection in courthsip.
And it was in Russia that the kiss was first incorporated into the marriage ceremony, where the couples promises to one another were sealed with a kiss.
The Romans kissed to greet one another, and one Roman emperor ranked a person's importance by the body part he was allowed to kiss. Those importance were allowed to kiss his face, lesser nobles were allowed to kiss his hands, and others were to kiss his feet (what about his lips??).
In Europe, the British are probably those who have held back most when it comes to kissing. Southern Europeans were kissing friends publicly long before the British considered the idea.
Today women also find it natural to kiss a good friend on the cheek, as a way of showing that we feel a close relationship to them. But men are still reluctant to kiss a member of the same sex. Even if he is his best friend.
By the way, kissing makes me feel good and leaves me with a positive attitude to life, and the most important is..it's healthy. So, shall we kiss? 
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My beloved country
Date: Feb 12th, 2005 3:21:09 pm - Subscribe
Mood: patriotic
First thing first, I hate politics. Period.
So, let's skip the politics stuff and start this blog with something nice.
The history.
I get sentimental everytime I read about the history of my country. How we struggle to get our independence. How many tears and lifes we should sacrifice just to see our red and white flag afluttered in this land. It is sad, truly a sad story.
Once upon a time, we were very poor (because of the colonialism) but happy in our own way. We were united and very humane. And it's sad knowing my country has changed dramatically over these couple of years. Democracy has become anarchy.
When I heard about Aceh and its Tsunami, I asked myself griefly if the disaster is a devastation from God.
Had we forgotten who we are and why we live?
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Do you believe in soulmate?
Date: Feb 11th, 2005 12:38:00 pm - Subscribe
Mood: dreamy
How's that sound? s.o.u.l.m.a.t.e
Part of my feminine side believe in soulmate (the idea of one soul is made to complete the other soul). But another part of my masculine side, just don't.
Once, my boyfriend (now he's my ex ) told me that I'm his soulmate. But why I didn't feel the same thing? Weird huh? If it does exist, when this soulmate-mambo-jambo happened between us (at least he felt that), don't you think I should feel it too?
But I didn't. And yes, we broke up.
Funny, the way I see it. I don't know if he lied to me about the soulmate thing or not (see my previous note by the way; I don't trust them).
Two years ago, I had a good relationship. When I felt he's the one and he felt the same thing. You know..the real relationship. But we broke up. Hah!
It was sweet, he was the greatest man I ever had. But we're not meant to be together. That's it.
I don't know if I believe in soulmate or not. Do you?
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Do you trust men?
Date: Feb 10th, 2005 5:48:37 am - Subscribe
Mood: addicted
Do you trust men? Well, I don't.
But I love them and need them (hm..sometimes).
Yesterday, I went to a mall with my cousin and her daughter (name's Aneira and she's only 6). My cousin divorced recently and she told me what is like to be a single mom.
Hmm.. men.
Do you trust them? Well, I don't.
But I know, we love them and desperately need them.
I am now a single and a happy young woman. Friends told me that I should get a new boyfriend right away. They even asked me to join a blind date program in some magazine (what???). Why I should be in a hurry? I'm still 23, beautiful and alive. And I prefer waiting for Mr Right than doing some trial-and-error dates with jerks. After all, I'm not that lonely anyway
Do you trust them? Well, I dont.
But We'll always love them and need them.
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A note for the 14th day of Feb
Date: Feb 6th, 2005 9:27:22 am - Subscribe
Mood: the criminal
Last night I was thinking about my crimes against love (perhaps it's valentine's syndrome).
Don't get me wrong, I didn't mean to celebrate the existence of love in my life (I've been celebrating love since the first cry). Because love means life itself.
I lied, I cheated, I fooled. I didn't know why I did that to them. Perhaps it's one of my journey that I should passed to get the meaning of my existence in this life.
I had lost my eldest brother a year ago. He's got sick and died in a hospital alone because he lived in a different town from us. I know it's God's will. So I can overcome with that.
But what made me felt so bad was the guilt. The first and the last time I said to him how much I love him was the time I saw his dead body lying there, in my living room.
Thanks to my spoiltness and egoism, I never saw my brother's love for me. When we're near, he treated me as I'm just a lovely and spoilt little kid like I used to be. I screamed and yelled that I'm a big girl now. And there's no way he could treat me like that. I asked for my parent's affirmation for this. And each time I tried to prove that I'm a big girl, I'm just making an obvious fact that I'm just a silly kid.
So now, when I'm thinking about my eldest brother I'll just cry in my pray. I miss him so bad..
A great grief in a great guilt.
I wasn't a good lover either. Perhaps it's another consequences of the guilt, I found myself trapped in the circle of affairs. I tend to ruin the relationship if it gets too comfy. Such a troublemaker from hell.
Someone told me once, "what you've done in the past is what you'll get in the future". If you're a tricker, someone will trick you back. And guess what..he's right.
Writing a confession of my sins against love doesn't mean I'm forgiven. I feel so sorry for myself. The best I can do is to get on with this life with the best things I had. To continue my journey with wisdoms and maturity. Thankfully, I'm beginning to answer the simple and the most important questions in my lifetime, "who am I" and "what makes me happy".
After all, mistake is the best teacher in life, don't you think?
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