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So, I've been a way for a while now but I have returned from an amazing two week break...

It started with me going to my cabin which is always an amazing experience in and of itself. Boating, Tubing, Wake Boarding, Water Skiing, Swimming, Golfing. Who wouldn't be happy. After a week and a half of that I came back home were I have been relaxing. Then last night I went to see Our Lady Peace (one of my all time favorite bands). Was such a great concert considering it was free with admission to the Stampede which is only $12 anyways.

All in all... Life is great...

Don't really have any morals are messages to say but all I can say really is enjoy life well you can. So many amazing things to do and see why get down and miss out on stuff.

Anyways,

Later guys

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Mood: baffled

Zatherus Christianity Jul 17th, 2006 5:38:29 am - Subscribe

So I don't know how many christians are out there on Aeonity and I'm not going to try to convert anyone so just read on

...

Today I had an experience that can only be expressed and true praise. I went to see Third Day live at the stampede. The concert was amazing to say the least. But, the most important part was when the lead singer started talking about the power of God and how he has the typical cycle of falling from God then finding him again and being accepted by God. I have just found him again. Today, at the concert, we were told to pray at one part so I did and during that time, I found him. Maybe it was the music, maybe it was the mass gathering of people, but whatever it was, I found myself turning back towards Christ after a long fallout. My life the past while has been all over the place and lacking of one thing. Guidance. Where God normally led me I was empty and now, as of about 3 hours ago I have found that guidance again.

Anyways. Just thought I would share that experience with you all and I'm sure I will get some GOD DOESN'T EXIST comments but to be honest... Those are the comments I want so that I can explain how powerful the feeling is when you are sitting in a stademe full of people worshiping. It is like nothing else and at the time the only way to explain it is God.

Sorry if this post bothered you guys and it will be my only God related post.

Zatherus

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Mood: virtuous
Song: Third Day - God of Wonders

Zatherus Summer Jul 22nd, 2006 9:20:05 am - Subscribe

So... It's summer. One of the most amazing times to have a camera at hand. I have gotten very interested in photography ever since my girlfriend really introduced me to it. (My background is the first really good picture I took with her) We watched that sunrise. Was beautiful. Anyways, sidetracking. The point is I plan to start a site that displays all of my photography so when I get that all down up I will post the site for those that are interested in my pictures.

Back to the whole deal with Summer. Being jobless and having all your close friends out of town can be really lame when you are trying to enjoy your summer so to keep myself busy I have been putting in obsessive amounts of time into my guild on Guild Wars (computer game) and into building a deck. For some reason I just want to extend the deck so I am having at it and I wont stop untill this thing is completed the way I want it...

SOOO... point is... I am tryign to keep myself preoccupied because otherwise I will pity myself and how boring my summer is with my girlfriend working, friends being gone, and all of that jazz...

Moral today is... Enjoy your summer well you can, because once its over, you will be back to work! HAVE FUN!!!!!

Zatherus

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Mood: bonkers

Zatherus Why am I such a tool??? :( Jul 25th, 2006 7:07:49 am - Subscribe

So... I really feel like a tool right now...

I can't believe how big a failure I am rigth now. I've commited myself to building a deck for my deck but lack the will to just do it and get it done. I keep brining up all these things that are creating issues for both my mother and father and decisions they are needing to make in regards to how the deck will look. Seeing as I am moving out in about a year it's supposed to be a favor to them but I keep saying, wouldn't it look better stained? If we plan on staining it we need to lift up the old deck and put down new wood. In this case the deck looks complete. But we could simply extend it and repaint the old colour. But it looks all disgusting in my mind but the point is that I keep brining up all these problems instead of just doing it.

Thats not even the worst of it... I'm failing making my girlfriend happy... and to me, thats the biggest failure I could be... Tonight I almost completely ignored her because I was playing a game... A GAME!!! I would say something then disappear for like 10 min or so then come back, and she would be gone

... How can I be so inconsiderate to her?

Finally, to add on to everything I'm slowly realizing I'm slipping in my life in general. I don't have a job, photography isn't taking me anywhere, and I'm going to university in a year and have NO clue what I plan on doing with my life.... Sure, I still have time to plan and all that jazz, but time is just wizzing by and I'm running out of it. I would love to go into something with Computer Graphics, Design, or even programming... but then I also love helping people in which case Pschyology is the route I want to take, but then there is also my will to act, sing, and play music

... I dont want to choose something and lose out on a life that could have been amazing... And what if I choose to go away from town for University

... I dont even dear think of it because I couldn't bare to be away from my girlfriend for that long. I know I shouldn't make a lifelong decision based upon one girl... but, I love her

...

I hate having this much time to think. I do nothing all day. NOTHING. I mean its 1a.m and I am still sitting here in my pajamas :|...
All my friends are out of town and my girlfriend has a job... then there is little old me who has NOTHING!!!! NOTHING but this bloody deck to build. I am stuck at home with my mother 24/7 now and I really cannot handle it for much more. Yes, I love my mom, but there is only so much of her I can take!! I guess the point is, I need a social life but it I cannot grasp it... The only social life I have is on a mic program with my guild mates from the same game that I couldn't pull myself away from to catch up with my girlfriend....

Anyways, this entry is getting long and so I'm gonna end it here... Next time I will write something more happy... Oh yah, Moral of the story: Do something with your life because sitting around doing jack all can make a person go crazy. Enjoy life well your options are still open because they close fast.

Later guys,

Zatherus

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Mood: Down
Song: Starfield - Shipwreck

Zatherus Making things right Jul 26th, 2006 9:54:14 am - Subscribe

So after having written a really long rant about how terrible things are rigth now and how much of a tool I am, I'm going to write how I resolved all of that.

First off with my girlfriend. I phoned her up at 2 in the morning on her cell because I needed to talk to her. She was happy to hear my voice and we sorted things out and everything is cool on that side of things. This weekend we plan on going to venture through ikea (love looking at their design and planning a future house and stuf) and then afterwards going out for dinner. Should be great...

Now, in regards to the deck, I have tried my best to stay out of the way on the whole decission making process but how can I not be apart of it when im stuck at home with my mother 24/7. She eats, breaths and sleeps deck at the moment. I woke up this morning and as soon as I stepped out of my abode (the basement) she was on me already with, how would this look? before my eyes have even adjusted to the light of the room. Now, I deal with this every day. This is why the decking is becoming such a pain to do BUT, I am learning to bite my lip and just go with the flow.

In regards to the job, I doubt I am goign to get the one I want so I might just have to apply elsewhere.

The only shocking thing is that my ex-director asked me to come back into a show he kicked me out of. The show goes up in five days :|..... I had to say no due to the fact that i have moved on past the show and am looking to the future now. Photography, music, life!

Oh yah, I can play guitar again

... This is exciting but I still am stumped and cannot write anything

... but at least its coming back slowly but surely...

Anywyas.. this is all I have to say at the moment and I hope you all enjoy reading my blog.

Zatherus

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Mood: balanced
Song: Seether ft. Amy Lee - Broken