Wanna spread my wings and fly...
Date: Mar 8th, 2006 7:51:44 am - Subscribe
Mood: hopeless
AK and I were talking last night and the subject of me going there this June got brought up...
He was expressing his disappointment about me not making any step to convince my folks about going to India. But the question here is how am I gonna approach the subject with them? They don't have a very bright impression of India with friends telling them its a dirty country and now with the recent news about bomb blasts, its gonna be even harder for them to agree to my trip...
Things would have been alot easier if I was living alone and my parents allow me to make whatever decision I want... but cos they dote on me the most and are most protective over me, its hard for them to accept the fact that their youngest and most brightest daughter wants to spread her wings and fly out of her cage and wants no one to stop her from doing so....
I guess I'm just so afraid of what they will think, that almost all my life, I have done the things they wanted me to do and not the things I myself wanna do. I've always tried my best to please them that in the end the one suffering is really me. And now with this decision to go to India for a holiday ALONE and to meet a guy there just sounds so ridiculous to them and surreal to myself....
And now on the other side... AK is sounding his disappointment about it cos I've been procrastinating this for so long (since last sept) Really made me feel guilty and bad about it....
Evil AK! Bleugh! 
He wants to take me to Goa....he said last night. I've done some research about that place online and it sure is romantic and beautiful... *dreams*
And if time permits he might even take me to see the Taj all the way up north.... He is willing to make all these arrangments as long as I make the flight down there...
why is it soooo complicated???
Deep down I really wanna go cos I miss him so much.... but the thought about getting my folks permission is whats holding me back... and I should stop holding myself back to ask them.... or I will never be happy in life....
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