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I got tired today when Matt was being testy. I feel like bullying is a way of life for him, as in: bully or be bullied. I noticed, that like me, he likes to play "you are bad" or "you are weak." In a way, I'm glad to meet someone who plays the same games I do, so I can find out from the other side what it looks like. It looks pretty dumb. (Insecure like, and self-absorbed.) Don't get me wrong. I like Matt. He just pushed it a bit far today though. I'm going to have to speak up. You all can vote which one you like best: 1. Drop dead, liverwort 2. I don't like you talking to me that way when my performance far exceeds anything you could reasonably expect 3. Just because someone treated you badly today doesn't mean you can take it out on me By the way, in case you missed it: I'm playing one of my favorite games right now. BAD MATT. Matt is bad. Bad, bad, bad. Yes. I can see that I'm playing my dumb little game that I swore off nearly a year ago. But how will I change that? |
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Today I felt ill. I woke up late from a nap, and drove in a daze to social event which had been canceled. When I got back home I checked my messages and I had a voicemail from yesterday telling me of the cancellation. I don't like that in-a-daze feeling. But it was better the thing was cancelled - because I needed more nap time. On the good side, Buddy got my computer working the way I wanted it to. USB microphones rock! I went to the store today and bought one. So far I'm very happy with the purchase. I also wrote a letter to my favorite cousin. I hope she's doing well. |
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Dale and Martin asked me to go on their smoking break with them. I don't smoke and they know that. So I was surprised when they asked me. I used to take five-minute breaks on the patio, and both the smokers and the non-smokers hated me for it. The non-smokers glowered at me as if to murmur: what makes you think you get a break? And the smokers disassociated from me as if to say: if you aren't smoking, go back inside with the goody-two-shoes. So this was new for me. I didn't smoke. I did tell the joke about the woman at the plastic surgeon's making a scene, just for fun: "I SAID BOTOX, NOT BUTTOCKS," she shrilled in a voice loud enough for anyone in the waiting room to overhear, (and hyperventilate about). Dale shook with laughter, and that was reward enough for me. |
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I got a call from an old friend today. I wasn't expecting it. I talked to her for a while. I told her who I've been falling in love with, and why it hasn't been working. I was surprised when she answered me. I like to be surprised. Still, I'm always surprised when someone voices a view that differs from mine. I don't know why. You think I would be used to it by now. I was just glad that she called. |
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Mood: unwanted What's up?: A call from an old friend is like a fall leaf in yellow and orange |