zephyr's Aeonity Blog - Do I have a friend?

Do I have a friend?	Sep 6th, 2006 4:41:34 am - Subscribe
Today Abby saw me eating by myself, and she grabbed a fruit cup and sat down with me and talked for ten minutes. I was grateful, not only because I like talking to her, but because five people walked through just then, and I would have been embarrassed to be seen eating alone. I used to eat by myself all the time. How is it that- now I care? I always cared, didn't I? I guess it was easier to eat by myself, entertained by my own thoughts, than to try and share those thoughts with other people. Before Abby came, three people came through individually, and I greeted them all, and held a conversation with two. I had that song in my head, "I get knocked down -but I get up again." I've been so embarrassed, and so shy, and so reticent, and suddenly, I'm sick of it. You know how you can have transference of principles in your life? Like maybe you learn a negotiating technique at work and you try it at home and it works? I'm having transference of things that I learned in dance, and I'm applying it to talking. Rules like; there's give and take. Rules like; people might step on your toes, but that's not a valid reason to stay on the sidelines. Rules like; you have to stick with things if you want to be any good at them at all.
mood: distracted What's up?: I've got a man on my mind.	(1) comments

	tron	September 06th, 2006
	Awww... u go through phases like that zephyr. its lonely if u never care what other people think because they stop caring about what u think. gl transferring ur dance stuff...