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kittie Hire Or Fire - Subscribe

I could not bring myself to go to another one of those meetings. I could not go to youth tonight either.

When he comes home tonight, I will know what our future holds in the church as youth pastors.

They will either hire us or "fire" us... though we are not paid. They are talking about paying us, but I'm not sure I want them to. We need the money... really bad... but... still.

In some sense, I hope they do "fire" us because I cannot continue to work for a church who has no hope; no dreams; or no passion for their youth.

But on the other hand, I do not want to see the youth be hurt by the elders' decisions if they do choose to illuminate us.

Either way, I do not feel comfortable with either of these options (hire or fire.)

Oh well, this to shall pass. I'm just tired.

Weather: Sunny. 75 degrees.

~Kittie~

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Mood: burned-out

kittie Sad N' Sunny Apr 18th, 2006 10:01:32 pm - Subscribe

A lot of disappointments as of late...
No, the church board has not (yet) asked us for our resignation.

Most of the "old-timers" are looking for any and every reason to get rid of us... But the youth and their parents are fighting to keep us.

We have had meeting after meeting discussing the same issues over and over. There will be another lame, boring meeting tomorrow as well. Oh joy.

A part of me will be relieved if they do decide to get rid of us. But yet, I will feel sad for the youth and miss them a great deal.

If you're old or rich in the church, you usually have all the power. Nothing else matters to them. As long as they're in their "comfort zones" and no one gets in their way; that's all that matters to them. But God just might decide to kick them in the butts someday if they're not careful.

I feel sad of doing this, but the hubby and I have been looking elsewhere for a youth pastor position. The last thing I want to do is leave town. I love it here. I love my church family and the youth. I don't want to leave. But it seems God is leading us a different direction.

I'm not sure this is where God wants us anymore.

I can't imagine my life without Mark and Nancy. I want to raise my kids near them so that we will be near their spiritual and parental guidance. They are the only "parents" we have who understand and support us.

Another thing that has led me to believe that God wants us elsewhere is because the house we were planning to get was sold. It was my dream house...

Haha. It really was though... I can always look at another house of course, but that house just seemed to be "the one."

Oh well. I'm really whiny today. Sorry.

I guess this is it... Nothing much else going on... The weather has been warm and humid. Feels like summer.

Weather: Sunny & Windy High: 93 degrees.

ps... I got a Sam's membership today.

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Mood: discouraged

kittie Puke... Apr 9th, 2006 10:53:51 pm - Subscribe

Tomorrow (Monday) we're having a meeting with the church board...

I'm almost certain they're going to ask us to leave...
Either that, or just complain more about how messy the building is.

I am so ready to leave...
I'm not sure I can take it anymore...

On The "Bright" Side of Things:

We found an old, abandon church building here in town and it is going really cheap...
Maybe it's about time we have our own building so we won't have to worry about ticking the old farts off.

It's sad that it has to come down to things like this, especially in churches where Spiritual growth should be the focus....
not how messy the building gets.

Aftershoc youth is a blessing, and it's sad that it can be so easily condemned for
such petty reasons. It makes me sad to see so many people that judge one another so easily.

Weather: Sunny. High: 70 degrees

~Kittie~

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Mood: flustered

kittie Storms Apr 7th, 2006 9:11:44 am - Subscribe

We had quite the storm last night. It was raining and hailing and the sirens were going off. There were no tornadoes though...

My dog Sisco got scared of the storm and ran away... I don't know if he'll ever come back.

I've been separating the winter and summer clothes and getting them organized. Every spring; put away the winter clothes and get out the summer ones.

Still pretty mad about the stuff at church going on... Rather not think about it.

Weather: PM Storms. High: 71 degrees.

~Kittie~

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Mood: mopey

kittie Still mad Apr 6th, 2006 5:48:35 pm - Subscribe

Still no phone call about the youth pastor position... They always remind us they're slow... But still I have my doubts.

I am lacking faith so much right now...
I am just so antsy and anxious about what God will do next... Will He allow us to be hired as youth pastors at this church? Or will He bring us towards a different direction?

I decided I'm not going to the Baptist church anymore.... not to their services on Sunday morning anyway... I will continue to work as their volunteer youth pastor for as long as they let me... But anytime soon they will probably kick us out.

It's pretty sad to be kicked out for not keeping the church building clean enough...

Weather: Stormy High: 74 degrees

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Mood: mad

kittie Not Good... Apr 5th, 2006 7:24:54 pm - Subscribe

A little on the down side...
Actually, maybe a lot...

Everything was going fine until this afternoon... The pastor lectured us... pretty much told us if we're not willing to "conform" to their ways, then they're getting rid of us.

They say the youth doesn't keep the church building clean enough... It has actually been spotless in my opinion... But spotless is not good enough for them... Sheesh... Baptist old farts.

I thought we were here to see the kingdom of God move.... Not to make sure that the building is always clean to perfection... Is it about God... or is it about the building??? Come on people...

Another thing they are whining at us about is they discovered a $1,200 bill... They blame it on us (the youth) of course (as we are the blame for everything.) But we did not spend it... and if we did, we would've said something.

They're so uptight about cleanliness and money. That's what God is all about I suppose... having a clean building and making sure the old, rich farts have plenty of money their your wallet.

They're threatening to get rid of us; which is funny because if we leave.... the youth will just follow. They don't even realize they didn't have a youth until we came along. I mean that literally... They had 3 kids in their youth program before we showed up. Now there are 32 youth.

It's sad how churches are ran... No wonder no one likes them.

God, I want to continue bringing these kids to you. It is my one, true desire. Please help me be strong and not to let anyone or anything get in the way of what you are doing in these kids' lives!

I think God is just about to end this and bring us in a new direction... I pray that where ever that may be, the youth will not suffer from the elders decisions.

We don't even get paid to do this...
It's all volunter (full-time.) It's only by God my family survives on what little we have. We do not complain because we believe by just seeing one youth give their heart to God is worth much more than money can buy.

Sometime this week (possibly tomorrow) we will get a phone call on whether we are hired at a different church for another youth pastor position. But only God knows what's in store... It may not be there.

Old people think they are so smart... They have no idea how really stupid they can be. We are not respected because we are a much younger generation... We are young and do not know anything...

Why do we have very few young people attending church?

Well, I think the answer should be very obvious to you now.

Weather: Mostly cloudy/Windy High: 80 degrees

~Kittie~

ps... I did not think or proof-read any of what was written above... I am aware I am writing most of this out of anger... So please do not take offense.

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Mood: distraught

kittie Back To Reality... Apr 3rd, 2006 6:50:07 pm - Subscribe

Okay... so I've been gone a while...

I don't normally skip an entry for this long; but things have been busy.

I'll try to give a quick update about what has been going on as of late...

The hubby and I disappeared for a week to celebrate our 7 year anniversary.

It felt nice to get away for a while... We really needed it and enjoyed every minute of it! I won't tell you all we did... haha... I'll just tell ya that it was good.

We are back to our normal daily schedule now... It's kind of funny because I keep day-dreaming about going back on vacation again... haha. But I enjoy my work... I couldn't ask for anything more.. I love working with youth.

Oh, we got a new dog! His name is Sisco. He's a very tamed, well-behaved, smart dog who loves attention from anyone and everyone! But he cannot stand to be alone... So I've been having to take him every where with me. When I go into a store, I leave him in the car with the windows down. I don't know what I'll do with him when it gets too hot outside to have him in the car.

Everytime I leave him at home, he gets nervous and jumps through the window (with the glass still in it.

He broke my window...

And he's very attached... he follows me around everywhere I go. I love him. He is a great dog and very pretty! He's medium-sized... almost looks like a lab, but he's a mutt. But I like having him around because I feel safer when the hubby is not able to be around.

He's really smart... He can shake hands and fetch... and he's very obediant!!! Well, except when I leave him at home.

Micah (my hubby) and I are looking at buying a bigger house. The one we live in is too small. We're actually in the progress of making a baby.

We love our two boys, but we both want a daughter so bad!!!!

Well, right now the Monday Night Meals for the college is going on... So I better get out there and finish serving.

I have been dreaming a lot lately... of having a bigger house... a new baby... and having just one more week of vacation would be nice... haha... but that's not gonna happen anytime soon...

Hope you all enjoy your week!!!!

Weather: Mostly sunny. High: 63 degrees.

~Kittie~

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Mood: dreamy

kittie On This Day... Mar 27th, 2006 8:26:02 am - Subscribe

March 27, 1999

Today is my hubby's & me 7 year wedding anniversary!!!!!

We're having our children stay home with a babysitter and we're leaving town!!!

~Kittie~

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Mood: wonderful

kittie Fancied Up Mar 26th, 2006 11:30:28 am - Subscribe

I didn't think yesterday would ever end...

Thankly Brittany was online to help pass the long hours away.

Me and Brittany have been writing emails back and forth all week... The more we talk; the more I realize how much we have in common. She's just an awesome person.

She's coming back to Pittsburg tonite.... So I'm excited about seeing her!!!

The roof was so close to being finished yesterday... We stayed till 9:30 pm; but still were not able to finish because it got too dark outside.

He will have to finish it today somehow... but there is no time left in the day... it is completely filled.

This morning youth meeting @ 9:15 am.

Come home get dressed; drive 2 hours to Edna to family reunion which starts @ 1pm

Drive back home and get dressed again for youth meeting in evening which starts @ 4 pm.

Youth ends really late at night on Sundays so... Uhhh, we may just have to end it at an earlier time just so he can finish that roof.

Tomorrow.... VACATION STARTS!!!!

I am all dressed and fancied up for the family reunion. Bailey is coming with us. I'm nervous about going... I haven't seen some of these people since I was a kid.

Weather

artly cloudy/Wind High 63

~Kittie~

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Mood: bonkers

kittie I Need A Break! Mar 25th, 2006 3:51:21 pm - Subscribe

I just got home and caught my cat peeing on my clothes!

What has gotten in to her? She never does such a thing.

I was so mad; I grabbed her and put her in a pet kennel.

I have had her for over 5 years and I have never seen her act with such bad behavior. She is just going ballistic in that cage; she hates it in there. She's meowing up a storm.

I just wonder if my other cat has been doing the same? Because as soon as she saw me putting the cat in the cage; she ran away! I can't find her.

Today has started out slow. My husband had an interview @ 11 this morning. I was suppose to go with him to the interview; but didn't because we had nobody to watch the kids.

The boys are just triple times hyper than normally today! I wanted to pull my hair out all morning long! What have they gotten into???? A bag of sugar for breakfast or something????

This isn't a very wonderful Saturday so far.

After tomorrow is over with, we're finally going on vaction. Monday is me and the hubby's 7th year anniversary!

YAY.

Yeah, we're bringing the boys to a babysitter and leaving town. We're going to stay in a hotel somewhere and blow all the money we have earned this week! Haha. Can't wait!!!

This week has been miserable really. I'm ready for it to be over! Hubby has worked all week on remodeling houses. I've been helping him some; but comes home late every evening and complains how sore he is. And I complain about how much I miss him through out the day.

Tomorrow my grandparents are getting married again. It's their 40th year anniversary. So we're having a celebration party with them @ 2 pm with family I haven't seen in years. I'm kind of nervous about it.

Today the hubby is finishing up the roof that he has been working on for the last few days. It better get finished today or we'll never get to leave for our anniversary getaway.

A whole bunch of the youth kids from church showed up this morning to help him on the roof! I was so shocked and amazed! And Steven was there! How awesome is that?! He's such a busy guy!

I got my hair done yesterday. I colored my roots blonde and cut my hair a little shorter since the weather is supposedly getting warmer. Short hair is so much easier to take care of than long hair. My husband likes my hair now; but he always likes long hair better.

I put my kids down for a nap... They have way too much energy!!!

I need some quiet time....

Weather: Beautiful. Sunny. 52 degrees.

You all have a great weekend!!!

~Kittie~

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Mood: perturbed

kittie ppppffft Mar 23rd, 2006 3:42:57 pm - Subscribe

It's nap time for the boys. I thought about taking a nap myself, but I feel a little restless.

They said it was going to be cloudy today and it is bright and shiny out!

Yay! And much warmer than it was yesterday!

I forgot about The Foundry business meeting we have this evening...

It starts at 6:30... I have everything written down in my organizer... Why am I not looking this important stuff up?? I'm a dummy sometimes.

The youth lock-in starts at 8 tonight. So we have plenty of time to make way for both; even though I will probably stay home with my sons while hubby goes.

There's just too much stuff on my mind... no wonder I'm so restless and fidgity...

Oh, and you know what else?? They were wrong about the snow too!!! We're not getting any snow!!!! It's too warm and sunny for snow!!!! You people don't know how to predict weather worth a hoot.

~Kittie~

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Mood: flustered

kittie A Day With My Boys Mar 23rd, 2006 9:56:56 am - Subscribe

Good Morning Aeonity

I just got out of bed to the sound of my husband walking out the door and driving away at 8 am. I'm not sure why he is leaving so early.

He is working on a house again today to earn some extra dough for "our getaway" next week for our anniversary. Some of the kids from youth have offered to help him; so he told them to meet him at the church at 10 am. The youth are wanting to help to earn money for the missions trip to Mexico this summer.

I am not fully awake right now. I'm a little sad about him leaving so early because I won't see him all day, nor all night.

Tonight the youth is having a lock-in at the church. But I will most likely not be there because I do not have a babysitter for my sons.

Instead, I will be staying home today and spending the day with my sons. We're going to watch lots and lots of movies.

I rented Chicken Little, Bambi 2, Little Stuart, and a Scooby Doo cartoon.

They'll love that.

I just feel a little guilty because I haven't had much time to spend with them lately. And even though they're still a little too young to even notice; it still breaks my heart.

I have a few letters/emails that I want to get written today also.

I am like really hungry right now.... My sons are still asleep... I really am in the mood for pancakes.

But I don't think I have the stuff to make it...?

I will be glad when this week is over with truthfully. I know it's spring break and all; but hubby and I have been working non-stop through spring break.

I'm really looking forward to our anniversary "getaway" though.... It'll be nice just to be somewhere else for a change.

Weather: High: 45 degrees. 60% chance of snow. Mostly partly cloudy.

~Kittie~

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Mood: drowsy

kittie COLD Mar 22nd, 2006 2:21:25 pm - Subscribe

Today is the 3rd day of spring and it is freezing-butt cold out there!

My husband yelled at me a minute ago...
I think I was distracting him from his work, so he got a little frustrated.

He's doing some outside work on a house that is being remodeled... He has Daniel and Brad working with him... Brad doesn't know what he's doing and he's taking up all the time in the day on a one-day job because he talks more than he works. (He wasn't even suppose to come on this particular job anyhow.)

I painted ceilings on a house all day yesterday with my hubby. We made $125.

We're hoping to make some extra cash so we can go away somewhere for our anniversary next week.

My eyes are healed... thank God. By yesterday they were all clear and looked normal again. I was so relieved!

Thank you all for your sweet comments and concerns.

I wanted to work outside with hubby today, but the last thing I want to do is stand in freezing cold weather.

Weather: COLD & Breezy. Partly cloudy. High: 44 degrees.

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Mood: glum

kittie Infected Eyes Mar 20th, 2006 2:38:02 pm - Subscribe

I was gonna write an entry yesterday, but my eyes couldn't handle the computer screen's brightness. I actually wore sunglasses to help dull the brightness as I wrote a couple emails.

I think I have an eye infection. They keep matting up, watering, and they are extremely red. My right eye won't even stay open most of the time.

I look quite ugly at the moment. I remind myself of the cartoon character Hunchback of Notre Dome. Only I don't have that hunchback thing going on... haha.

Today my eyes seem to be doing a little better. I am able to look at the computer screen for a short moment without painfully wanting to cry.

Yesterday was horrible. I couldn't keep my eyes open hardly at all because it was just too painful. It hurt so bad that I started to cry. But the more I cried, the more it hurt because of the salt in my tears.

Oh, I wish this kind of stuff on nobody. I have never experienced an eye infection before; but now that I have, I never hope to experience it again!

I have just been lying on the sofa praying to God to heal my eyes. I couldn't do much of anything else. I couldn't watch tv because the screen was too bright for my eyes to take. And I couldn't get on the computer for the same reason.

I have been miserably bored and in extreme pain.

At least today my husband is staying home with me to keep me company.

The weather is really bad outside today. Everyone is rushing to the stores to grab last minute food and snacks because they say a terrible storm is coming. I don't know whether it's true or not. The wind is gusting really hard and it's extremely cold out there as well. So, maybe there really is a storm coming.

Something good though happened today! My husband and I got a phone call and were asked to go to a job interview this Saturday @ 11am for a youth pastor's position.

If we are hired, we will then be able to work for 2 youth groups from 2 different churches. Our goal is to unite all the denominations in our community so that we can come together as a family.

Anyway, my eyes are starting to hurt again. I better go lay down and rest again.

Weather: Windy with thundershowers. High: 42 degrees. Snow showers over night.

~Kittie~

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Mood: horrible

kittie Sunday Afternoon Mar 19th, 2006 12:50:51 pm - Subscribe

Didn't make it to church this morning...
I sent the hubby and boys to go by themselves.

Had difficulty sleeping again last night, but I at least got more sleep than the night before.

I woke up to my eye being sewn shut with matter (green boogers.) They just keep watering and matting up...

I'm having difficulty looking at the monitor because my eyes are so teary and blury.

They're all red and watery.

I'm suppose to go out with Brittany for lunch today. I don't know if I will... She might not want to be around me if I'm contagious. I don't think I am though...

I don't think it's pink eye. I really think it's just an eye infection or sinuses or something. Because my ears and throat hurt as well.

Well, I'm going to have to cut this short... my eyes cannot stand to look at the computer screen right now...

Weather: Showers. High: 44 degrees.

~Kittie~

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Mood: blind

kittie Eye Gone Bad Mar 18th, 2006 8:08:56 pm - Subscribe

One of my eyes have turned all red on me. It keeps watering and matting up... and it gives me an uncomfortable feeling.

Both my sons had this very exact thing happen to them about a week ago...
I'm almost sure it is not pink eye. I really think it is to do with my sinuses or something.

Don't know...

But my eye isn't looking too good.

I have a feeling it won't look any better in the morning. But, we'll see.

~Kittie~

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Mood: uneasy

kittie sleepless Mar 18th, 2006 2:56:01 pm - Subscribe

I didn't get one hour of sleep last night. My husband stayed out till 6 am setting up for the Halo tournament. I will be glad when this is over with. I am so tired.

To say the least, I am not very happy with the hubby right now... We're not getting along so well.

And it doesn't help that we're both very stubborn.

We always get along truthfully... and we're always together. But sometimes we go through these small stages of fighting about every 5 months or so.

Today we're spending the day apart.

He's running the Halo tournament and I am... well... I'm just here.

Our 7th year anniversay is like next weekend... I hope that weekend will turn out better than this one.

Weather: Showers all day. High: 49 degrees.

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Mood: lifeless

kittie Watch for Wet Turf Mar 17th, 2006 3:18:04 pm - Subscribe

Weather.com says "Watch for Wet Turf." I had to chuckle a little when I read the words "wet turf." It just sounds funny to me.

I am busy making Halo signs for the tournament. I'm pretty sure this is the only time I will get to update for today. So it'll be short and sweet.

I hope you all have a great weekend!!

HAPPY ST. PATTY'S DAY!!!!

Weather: Late showers developing. High 52 degrees.

Tomorrow showers are expected as well.

~Kittie~

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Mood: active

kittie Yippee! Mar 16th, 2006 11:32:27 pm - Subscribe

Do any of you live near train tracks with active trains? I love it because I love the thundering sounds of the train cabooses crashes together when the train is stopping. And I love feeling the vibrations on the floor (especially as I am lying in bed) as the train is passing by...

Most people will say they hate living by trains because they hate the annoying clashing of the cabooses hitting one another. And they hate the vibration the train will make on their house...

So I guess I'm a little weird in that way...

I love living by trains!

But I really do dislike living in the house we live in. It is a small 2 bedroom house with a small livingroom and small kitchen... Small everything... But we got it cheap and that is why we bought it.

But I'm not complaining... we are very blessed to have this house. It may not be the house of my dreams, but it gives us a warm, comfortable place to sleep and that's what we need.

Micah and I have been talking about having another baby. We really desire to have a daughter someday. We love our boys, but a daughter would also be nice.

And today, we heard about a couple from church who is selling their house and moving. And they asked Micah and I if we would be interested in buying it!

They're willing to give us a great deal for the house! Only $35,000! The house's average cost is somewhere estimated around $50,000.

It's somewhat a small house itself, but it's much bigger than the one we have... AND... it has 3 bedrooms! Which means it would be big enough to have another baby!

So on Wednesday at 5 pm, we're going to take a look at the inside of the house and see what we think. I'm quite excited about it! It really would be nice to have a bigger place to live.

Anyway, tomorrow we're cleaning and preparing for the Halo2 tournament we're having at the church basement. It's going to be busy.

Saturday the tournament starts!

Weather: Partly cloudy. Very Windy. 63 degrees.

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Mood: gleeful

kittie Phewy... Mar 15th, 2006 11:59:56 pm - Subscribe

I am here at home making beaded jewelry. I've been home since 4:30 pm because of this fever I have.

Why have I been getting sick so often lately????

And my throat has been so sore...

I felt just fine yesterday... Why don't I feel fine today?

I missed the youth meeting this evening... I'm feeling a little tired.

Yesterday was so great though!

My hunny took me out on a date and we went to the mall and he bought me an awesome looking purse... then we ate at Garfield's for lunch... Then we went to the theater and watched Failure to Launch... Then we ate dinner at the Waffle House...

I wish today was as nice as yesterday...
it's not though...

oh well.

Weather: Cloudy mixed w/sunshine. 71 degrees.

~Kittie~

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Mood: crummy