zephyr's Aeonity Blog - Are you in? What does it take?

Are you in? What does it take?	Sep 19th, 2006 1:30:28 pm - Subscribe
I went to a dance audition as a spectator. Only one dancer made it. It was hard for me to see the others' disappointment. I honestly don't think the dancer who made it was any more talented than the others, but he had put the work into it, and it showed. The team was treating him like he belonged, even as he was trying out. His moves were there for him because he had practiced and practiced. He belonged before he belonged; his heart was in it, and his time too. When I think of belonging, it reminds me that I'm a nerd. I get mad at the social aspects of belonging, insider/outsider sometimes, but only because … it seems to mock all of my weakest skills. It's not enough, apparently, to be a decent person and want greater good for humanity; apparently you also have to be socially adept, kind in your words, genuinely interested in other people, and funny and eloquent. I finally gave in and phoned a speech therapist. She hasn't phoned me back though. She probably thought I was joking. She probably thinks I speak fine. I'm not getting the results I want, though.
mood: aggressive What's up?: I tutored my friend in statistics. (I could communicate THAT real well.)	(0) comments