zephyrs Aeonity Blog

Trumped

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 12:46:56 -0500

Patricia heard me say that I liked Neal. Next thing I know, she was going out with him. That's weird, that she would like the same things about Neal that I would. Especially since she's talked so much about how off the wall I am. But it's good. I would never make a relationship like that one work for me, and she has real feelings for him.... Read More

Late night conversations

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 12:43:13 -0500

Parker. Remember Parker? Years ago he called me after midnight, mildly drunk. He needed to spill his guts. He needed to tell someone I guess. I didn't mind. I love Parker. He's doing real well last I heard. He has an amazing gift for aesthetics. He has an amazing gift for being real. His honey bear Brenda is almost as gentle with his heart as he... Read More

Come here; I want to hurt you

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 21:56:20 -0500

I wish I could tell you what was going on in my head. I wish I could explain to you play by play what really happened at my last job. I wish that I could talk to you about the folks I fall in love with. I wish I had some fairy dust to make things lighter. I wish you could see me when I'm sick, or racked with pain. I wish you could do a ride-alon... Read More

Watch the clock tick by as the pendulum swings

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 23:50:50 -0500

This part of my life seems to be in slow motion. It feels like being a teenager again. Everything feels up in the air and out of my control. Isn't that how I felt when I was that age? That everything was beyond my control? I didn't expect to revisit this place. After I got out of high school, my life got better and better for a time. Things seem... Read More

Love

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 11:53:36 -0500

This gal I know broke up with her boyfriend when she was a teen, in part because she discovered she had a terrible illness. Well, she beat the odds, and survived. And now, it's ten years later. He's been her close friend all this time, she has a clean bill of health, and he finally realized that he's still in love with her. That he's been in love w... Read More

Are you in? What does it take?

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 08:30:28 -0500

I went to a dance audition as a spectator. Only one dancer made it. It was hard for me to see the others' disappointment. I honestly don't think the dancer who made it was any more talented than the others, but he had put the work into it, and it showed. The team was treating him like he belonged, even as he was trying out. His moves were there for... Read More

Wedding crashing

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 07:30:40 -0500

I drove Aunt Sarah to a wedding she wanted to attend, and so I crashed the wedding. (Actually she forewarned them that they needed an extra plate, but she didn't even need to do that because it was buffet style anyway.) Somehow we ended up sitting at a table with the bride's college friends, and they had brought dates who were on their college f... Read More

Call it like you see it

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 23:51:48 -0500

A lot happened. I don't want to talk about it. Maybe on a better day.... Read More

Reverse snoots

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 23:39:29 -0500

Today I wore the new suit with the new hairdo and the new necklace. Before lunch time I stopped at a hobby store to buy craft items. Everybody there was in their grungies. Baggy t-shirts and nondescript pants. I thought they looked like they should be sitting on a couch eating cheese-its. What a horrible thing to say! That's why I write it in my... Read More

Fatalism as an option

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 16:54:45 -0500

I went to the mountain today to pray. I watched the birds and listened to the cicadas. Something that I'd been thinking before clicked. Just like you can't get to be a good fighter without getting hit, you can't fully learn to live without being dealt some crappy hands. I don't know why, but it all goes together. It has nothing to do with odds. Odd... Read More