Another midnight
Date: Oct 8th, 2009 9:10:31 am - Subscribe
Mood: triumphant
Just another midnight
Still don't eat rice, but today I am proud of myself O.O
I do stay in front of my desk the whole day, doing my math project. Cool...
Kinda tired and dizzy, but I am glad I can finish it, although I did it while browsing, chatting, and else~
Oh, and holiday is over soon. Need to recharge!
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The fear keeps coming closer
Date: Oct 6th, 2009 7:09:31 pm - Subscribe
Mood: shaken
Day by day has gone by, I started to feel scared of what's going to happen when he is going back here. My mind is going crazy, for real. I keep daydreaming, dazzling, and thinking about him all day long. I recalled the times when he was really care about me in the past.. i wonder if all of those were fake.
There was time when my dad comes visit me. That day, my dad and I planned to go out of town. But suddenly I fell sick, got high fever, and so I couldn't go. My dad promised his friends already, besides they have bought the plane tickets. So they decided to leave me resting. Three days I had to stay alone resting, and that three days he, the man I love, my beloved, visited me constantly, accompanied me.
That time, he was busy. He needed to move out to a new home, plus he had to go to work. Yet he still came. He didn't let me go out to buy my own lunch or dinner. He came to bring me lunch, then after ate together he left to continue his jobs and else, then dinner time he came again to bring me dinner, then accompanied me watch TV for a while.... this lasted three days.
I was so touched... Every time I remembered everything that he had done for me in the past, I always felt touched..
Were all of those fake? ........
I am going crazy. I guess I need to eat rice after all. I forgot, is it the fifth or sixth day i haven't eaten rice? ... wow.
I am so messed up
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Still no rice
Date: Oct 5th, 2009 6:51:44 am - Subscribe
Mood: love
Still no eat rice, which means I don't eat meat nor vegetable. Bread and milk, bread and milk, and biscuits and cookies~ but hey, I'm good!
In fact, I feel better now that I don't feel any hunger. I don't know why. Guess, I'm going crazy. And I had the weirdest dreams these last three days.... well, about him. I better not tell about these *censored*
Anyway, I don't know what I am feeling. I don't really feel sad anymore, but more like relieved and lonely at the same time. I feel like I did the right thing, letting him go for his happiness. But somewhere inside, I feel a deep regret, although it is covered with slight happiness looking at him happy. Well, I don't know if he's happy or not, haven't seen him for days.. starting to miss him
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I don't need rice
Date: Oct 4th, 2009 5:04:21 am - Subscribe
Mood: abnormal
Fourth Day
I still don't have desire to eat. Haven't eaten rice for four days, and looks like my stomach doesn't need it too.
All day long, I just need to eat a bread with one small carton of milk. I also didn't drink much, only a bottle of water for one day.
Cool..... and amazingly, I don't feel hungry at all. My body is really amazing!
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Tough Days
Date: Oct 3rd, 2009 6:07:16 am - Subscribe
Mood: inspired
Three days non-stop
Tough days for me and my computer
I hardly eat and my computer hardly sleep.
No, no, in fact, it didn't sleep at all for three days
But I am getting better, I guess..
Tomorrow is a new day, and I will let my beloved computer sleep well tonight.
Oh by the way, today is the mid autumn festival
Happy Mid Autumn!
And of course, to my buddy, Connie, Happy Birthday! Though you are not here now, and we can't celebrate, we will surely do it when you are back here ^^
Go go go, I need to move on!
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