zhanghes Aeonity Blog

I need you

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 17:14:06 -0600

It feels like I barely know you anymore. You've changed a lot and it hurts me. I can understand if people can change, but at least talk to me. We barely talk anymore... like the old times, chatting about everything, laughing at your jokes. Then you would ask me out dinner, and we would have fun there, laughing and chatting, like never get tired of ... Read More

Last day with him

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 07:26:45 -0500

17th October 2009 Breaking Up Day Spending the whole day with him. It was so beautiful. He cooked for me, talked to me gently as he always did before, and put me to sleep. Again and again I had to hold my tears not to burst in front of him. It was just that time when we hugged, I couldn't hold it, and I cried there.. I didn't want it to end.. t... Read More

What to choose

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 20:02:11 -0500

Um, my mood is a bit better now that I calm myself down. I don't know what I was so angry about, and I felt guilty that I yelled at him and pissed him out. I was so childish. And this is getting worse, really. This is not going anywhere, and it slow us down. Should I say those words now? Or should I just wait until he settled down and decide what ... Read More

ARGH!

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 01:36:33 -0500

IT HURTS!! DAMN IT! HE ACTS LIKE A REAL JERK! GO CONTINUE WITH THAT YOU LOSER! GO TO HELL! YOU'RE JUST THE SAME AS THE OTHER GUYS!! FULL OF BULLSHIT! AN ASSHOLE! YOU CAN GO HANG YOURSELF AND DIE! STOP HURTING ME!!!!... Read More

Sleep... now I need sleep!!

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 14:25:13 -0500

I haven't gotten enough sleep lately. It's not like I'm busy or anything, I don't know why, I just couldn't sleep. Usually, after I lied down, 5 minutes later I would be asleep. This is eating me alive. Classes started today, and I left with eyebags on my face.. I need to do something. Damn him! Get out of my brain!... Read More

Another midnight

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 08:10:31 -0500

Just another midnight Still don't eat rice, but today I am proud of myself O.O I do stay in front of my desk the whole day, doing my math project. Cool... Kinda tired and dizzy, but I am glad I can finish it, although I did it while browsing, chatting, and else~ Oh, and holiday is over soon. Need to recharge! ... Read More

The fear keeps coming closer

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 18:09:31 -0500

Day by day has gone by, I started to feel scared of what's going to happen when he is going back here. My mind is going crazy, for real. I keep daydreaming, dazzling, and thinking about him all day long. I recalled the times when he was really care about me in the past.. i wonder if all of those were fake. There was time when my dad comes visit ... Read More

Still no rice

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 05:51:44 -0500

Still no eat rice, which means I don't eat meat nor vegetable. Bread and milk, bread and milk, and biscuits and cookies~ but hey, I'm good! In fact, I feel better now that I don't feel any hunger. I don't know why. Guess, I'm going crazy. And I had the weirdest dreams these last three days.... well, about him. I better not tell about these *censor... Read More

I don't need rice

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 04:04:21 -0500

Fourth Day I still don't have desire to eat. Haven't eaten rice for four days, and looks like my stomach doesn't need it too. All day long, I just need to eat a bread with one small carton of milk. I also didn't drink much, only a bottle of water for one day. Cool..... and amazingly, I don't feel hungry at all. My body is really amazing!... Read More

Tough Days

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 05:07:16 -0500

Three days non-stop Tough days for me and my computer I hardly eat and my computer hardly sleep. No, no, in fact, it didn't sleep at all for three days But I am getting better, I guess.. Tomorrow is a new day, and I will let my beloved computer sleep well tonight. Oh by the way, today is the mid autumn festival Happy Mid Autumn! And of ... Read More