http://www.aeonity.com/zik The 10 most recent public blogs by zik Sun, 07 Sep 2008 15:09:38 -0500 Aeonity Blog v2 http://www.aeonity.com/zik/blog/2961 i dont know exactly when it started. but it did. i have an illness i cant name. and in the medical world, it will never be an illness... officially... but there are times when we ourselves are the only ones who know that something is wrong. and i know with all my heart i have an enemy to fight against. and that enemy lives in me. it's even more painful i guess, because as i try to struggle with it, i hurt myself in the process. and i really dont know which enemy.. or enemies i'm fighting against. in the end, i cry instead, trying to find the answers. i struggle day after day. and not a day goes by, grateful, to find myself, able to put on my shoes, and step outside into the world. even if it means, cryin and talking to the wall at night. it's become a cycle. i cry to be happy again. and i become happy only to cry at night again. but no matter what, i will not let myself sink deeper into the water, for as long as i have these legs to kick myself afloat, and these arms to bring me closer to the shore. unless i choose to continue to swim, only then will i know if i will survive. http://www.aeonity.com/zik/blog/2961 http://www.aeonity.com/zik/3 Sat, 31 Jul 2004 09:36:25 -0500 http://www.aeonity.com/zik/blog/2946 we all have our 'tics'. we've been workin on psychia the past week. interesting... i have now some bit of basis to diagnosis myself with a tic disorder. ahihihihi? hmmm.. maybe if a doctor did take a look at me, i probably wont hit the lowest diagnostic point for it. but as i said, i really think we all have our 'tics'. i have this unusual habit of trying to balance the 'imbalanced' energy in my head, or is it in my soma.. i have no idea. wait, or maybe it's not a tic at all. could it be schizo? coz it's more like a 'fear' or something... pfff.. i can't explain with just words! lol... i might as well just retreat into my head, and vent it all out to my friend called 'i'.. insanity? naahh..... right? http://www.aeonity.com/zik/blog/2946 http://www.aeonity.com/zik/2 Fri, 30 Jul 2004 20:59:11 -0500 http://www.aeonity.com/zik/blog/2944 born into the world. yep http://www.aeonity.com/zik/blog/2944 http://www.aeonity.com/zik/1 Fri, 30 Jul 2004 20:32:15 -0500