-:: F U C K T H I S::-
Date: Nov 14th, 2005 11:30:11 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Fucking Shit


.. Oh, and I'm leaving this shit-tastic state this Saturday. This will also be my last blog post, seeing as we don't have the internet out there yet. Hoorah...
.. My stress level has gone up due to a few people. I'm back to my normal days where I fucking cry all the damned time. But, it's mostly one person. =| And he doesn't give a rats ass how I feel. Thanks.

Now, I'm going to bed before I get my ass kicked for being up.

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-::Moving Away::-
Date: Nov 2nd, 2005 4:11:10 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Worthless x 37837823


Moving to California sometime this month, can't take it here anymore..

.. I lost my boyfriend a while ago, and today is the first time that I have cried about him being gone..
.. I really miss him eventhough I know he hates me.

Nothing much else to say..

Just heading to work..
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-::Holy Wow Mayn::-
Date: Oct 8th, 2005 10:50:24 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Kickin\' It Up, Bitches.




I thought, for the longest time ever, that Iowa was a shitty state and no one that lived here was cool.
.. But oh boy, I was proven wrong by two local bands lastnight. They are fucking amazing.

... Slaughter House 6 and P.S.
I like Slaughter House 6 better, don't tell Zane that he might beat me.

.. Alright, I went with Matt, and not may people ended up showing, that we knew anyways. This one boy, Cody, one of Matt's friends showed up. This boy is fucking funny, I love the way he dances, and the way he picks on me. (He's mean, nice, and funny at the same time.)
.. P.S. played first.. I didn't mind them much, I wasn't feeling the beats just yet..
..Then, up next was Slaughter House 6... They made me stand and go up near the stage, where all of the kids were moshing like crazy. .. They rocked my fucking socks off to Hell and back. They are now my second to favorite band, just behing the popular group: Coheed & Cambria.(which Zane likes a whole lot.)
.. When standing in the moshing crowd, I couldn't take my eyes off of the lead singer, Chris, he was soooo amazing, not only his voice, and his moves up on stage, but he was soooo cute. Standing there staring up at him, I seemed to catch his gaze, which made me giddy like no other. Seeing someone like him standing in front of a crowd, singing while staring back at me.. Wow.
He then asked for the crowd of moshers to get up on stage with the band for the last song, I didn't want to get up there, considering I'm so fucking shy around people... I was the only one standing out on the floor, it was weird, but I didn't want to get on stage.. One of the other band members reached out to me and told me to get up on stage, so I took his hand and he pulled me up.
.. Now I was lost in the sea of dancing people and the band, the one that had helped me on stage came up to me while he was playing his bass and was wanting me to dance around with him, I just stood there laughing at him.
... After the song, the members were sitting on the edge of the stage, and the people I was with went up to them and started talking, the band was so cool, I really enjoyed how they interacted with the crowd and such.
.. At the end of the night, Matt and I were going to be stuck out at the fair-grounds.. Not planning a ride home..
.. Thank God for Zane, I don't know what I would have done without him, he drove us home then I sat on the couch and watched cartoons 'till I went to sleep.

<3333 THE END. <3333
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-::One Mistake After Another::-
Date: Sep 28th, 2005 11:02:17 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Like A Mistake

...I'm really fucking pissed off today..

..First of all, some fat fuck that's friends with my brother put my tiny little sweatshirt on, he probably stretched it out, and it smells like dog now.. Fucking gay..

..Two, I got called to the office.. I had to wait for over half an hour on my lunch break so that the stupid girl could talk to a fucking teacher while I wasted away my time.. I wasted all of that time just to hear her say that I have four days of detention.. Yay.

..Third, I had to sit through this stupid test deal about our life and drugs and also if we live in a good home environment thing.. Waste of my time.

...Fourth, I had to watch Jenna and John for around an hour and a half, touch, hold, kiss, hug, and tell eachother how much they loved eachother.. Made me feel real awesome knowing the person that I wanted to be with more than anything else, I couldn't be with for a few more months, and that's if his mom allowed him to come and see me..

..FIFTH, AND WORST OF ALL.. I broke up with my boyfriend.. Biggest mistake I'll ever make.. I still love him more than anything.. I told him that, but it doesn't seem to matter to him how I feel.. I'd do anything I could to make it up to him, -anything-.. I only wish that he could know how I feel...

..Oh well for me.. My own fucking fault, I'm the biggest mistake within my mistakes..

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-::My Thumb Hurts::-
Date: Aug 30th, 2005 10:54:10 pm - Subscribe
Mood: My Feeties Hurt. ;[ Rub them?

.. You know, when I write these, most of the time I can't think of a good enough title. But, titles aren't the important thing right? Damn right, it's the things the body is made of that makes these important..

I just got off of work, it sucked balls. But, a small group of preppy people came to see me, that's something you really want to see you at work. Besides that, I kept being bitched at by this girl that worked there, I really really hate her.

..But.. All of the things I have to go through are worth it, and, as you all might have noticed.. No matter what I seem to write about, it always is drawn back to Nicholas.

Which really can't be helped anymore, when he is -always- on my mind. Right now I'm wishing he was online so I could talk to him, maybe tomorrow we can talk to eachother all day and night, I'm thinking of buying another phone card, or a cell phone this time. Who knows? I really never do.

..And no one else seems to know either.

Anyways, I'm tired as fuck.

So... G'night people.
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