soxnotxemo
Andrew/Charlie Update - Subscribe
|
|
This is Andrew's mother again. I thought I would try to keep friends of the boys updated on their condition. I'm happy to say that Andrew finally awoke this evening. Unfortunately, he's yet to speak a single word to us. When he awoke he saw Charlie and started crying. Since then he's been lying in bed silently watching Charlie for movement. Charlie's breathing continues to do well, but he's yet to awake. The doctors think he'll pull through, so we'll be waiting for signs of alert from him. |
|
|
I'm in a much better mood now that I know Andy and Charlie are still alive.... ^____^ I forgot what I was going to put on this thing o.o....OH YEAH!!!... Wait.. no... ._. I'm at Steph's house.... again.... <.< OH! I remembered what I was going to put on this thiingy....<.< No wait... nevermind... I forgot it again....>< I'm going to put bands and stuff that I like listening to.... ^____^ BoA, Koda Kumi, Ayumi Hamasaki, Gackt, Miyavi, Ludacris, Selena, Shakira, Rammstein, Dong Bang Shin Ki, Se7en, Utada Hikaru, Daigo, ATREYU (put that at the beginning <.<), Marylin Manson, Hyde, Metallica, Kittie, Jack off Jill, Ken Hirai, Orange Range, Puffy AmiYumi, SM Town, Trocadero, The 69 Eyes, HIM, tATu, Dream, Goo Goo Dolls (Iris <3), Within Temptation, System ofA Down, Godsmack, Lonestar, Ok, there's million's more... but I'm not going to list them.... <.< Anywho.... ^-^ o.o Stephanie's talking about Playboy >< >.> Someone's asked me if I worked for Playboy before.... o.o I'm too fat to work for Playboy.... xD Ok, I'm not fat... but... still... besides.... I'm only 14... <.< I'm too young to work for Playboy.... Stephanie's botharing me.... ok she's not... she's just being herself... chich is a scary person... <.< Which is why she's my bestest friend -huggles Steph-ness- Ok... wait... -doesn't huggles Stephanie....- Cause... that's just... creepy.... o.o o.O I just put a hair on her.... and she said thankyou... xD! Comments, please xD |
|
3 Comments
Mood: hardcore : -headbangs to.... Star Spangeled Bannar- OH YEAH!!! wrock on, biotch!! xD |
|
|
|
I found out Charlie and Andy are still alive... God knows I want them both to pull through and be themselves when they're out of the hospital. -eyes twinkle, as tears fill up in her eyes- I hope they recover and wake up soon... I got in a fight last night with Zach... I was talking to Damien, and he hardly gets online anymore... and Zach started threatening to fry my computer if I didn't go to bed -sweatdrop- Eh... geez... He said I was prolly going to hell... and that hurt... so bad... I was crying because of it... I cried a lot in the past 24 hours... <.< THIS YEAR SUCKS!!!!!!!! ;-; Zach apologized for it this morning in an email... doesn't really change the fact that he said it... but it helped relieve the pain he'd braught upon me... Him saying that... almost pulled me over the edge... Thing is, he kind of knew I was thinkin' of suicide... he put at the bottom of the email something about if I was thinkin' about suicide think of this, and that it should help me do it quicker: "WIne is fine, but whiskey's quicker; suicide is slow and thicker. Take a bottle, drown your sorrows; Let it flood away tomorrow." -shivers- He scares me sometimes...ok.. a lot of times... <.< |
|
soxnotxemo
They're Still Alive... Jul 3rd, 2005 4:50:04 pm - Subscribe
|
|
This is Andrew's mother posting. There seems to be much confusion about the condition of my son and Charlie, so I'd like to try and clear things up. Both are currently undergoing medical treatment at the local hospital. They suffered serious injuries, but did not die, as some people were led to believe. Yesterday, shortly after 3AM, Andrew left to pick up Charlie at his residence. Less than a mile from Charlie's house, Andrew's car was hit by a drunk driver. The driver was killed in the crash while Andrew was knocked unconcious and left bleeding. A passerby called the hospital, whom attempted to contact me, but were unable to reach me for some reason. Andrew's aunt went to check on him and called some family members and friends, and somehow word reached Charlie that Andrew had passed away. As some of you may know, Charlie and Andrew were very close. Charlie was devistated by the news and took his father's gun. Less than an hour after Andrew's accident, Charlie lodged a bullet into his body. His little brother found him lying in a pool of blood and told his parents, whom called for an ambulence. Both recieved medical treatment and are currently sharing a room together. Neither of the boys have yet to wake up, but their breathing is steady. Please pray for a safe recovery for both young men...If you knew them in person, you would know why none of us here in Passau can bare the thought of losing them. |
|
|
OMG OMG OMG!!! I'm crying my eyes out...   One of my best friends, Charlie, of whom I was starting to feel more-than-friends feelings for, shot himself!!! ;-; I don't know how much I'm going to cry... but I know it's goin to be a lot! From what I know... Andy was on his way to Charlie's house... and Andy got in a car crash... and so Charlie shot himself.... (Charlie and Andy are... -sob- were... together) -chews on her lip... hard- I just want to die... right here and now.... I don't think I'll ever be able to listen to Goo Goo Dolls - Iris ever again, cause it reminds me of Charlie.... I can't take this anymore... I'm so close to suicide it's not funny... I need to truely smile again before something else happens... First thing that was truely FUCKED UP this year-- James broke up with me, even though 'he still loved me with his whole heart and would always love me' and then I find out Stephanie's moving... and then Heather's moving... and now Andy got in a car crash and Charlie shot himself.... Nothing makes sense anymore... I don't know what I did, but I don't think I deserve all this, do I? Is there something horrible I've done to have this brought upon me? Whatever it is, god I hope my punishment is done.... -cries- I can't take this anymore.... I just CAN'T!!!!! If you leave a comment... please be nice... I need it right now... thanks... |
|
soxnotxemo
You Could Be The One I'll Always Love Jul 3rd, 2005 3:25:23 am - Subscribe
|
|
I'm in one of those lame, "Oh, my god...No one understands poor little me!" moods. I get so depressed lately and I can't even stand myself anymore. I had a 'great' dream last night...It started with me alone in the city. I guess I was homeless or something, because I was dressed in rags and begging people for money, only to be laughed at. Eventually I stumbled into an alley and leaned up against a wall before grabbing a piece of broken glass. With one swift movement, the glass was across my wrist. I just sat there watching the blood fall before I fell to the ground. As I slowly bled to death, I whispered my final words.. "And you will be the death of me..." I guess that means I'm meant to die alone in a dark, cold alley. I'm going to see Charlie. I miss him like crazy and I just need to be near him right now...I'm on my way, my love. <3 |
|
|
 Colonal Mustard wants his army of hotdogs to report to his buns! Don't ask... just... don't ask... o.o Yesterday- 1:00 AM - The yoyo ate a cheesburger. 2:00 AM - My blanket caught on fire because the fan dropped a cig on it. 3:00 AM - A dinosoar ate my window, which was covored in katchup. The Dinosoar was covered in katchup, not the window. 4:00 AM - I ate a DVD (Beauty and the Beast) It was yummy. 5:00 AM - Shit out a banana. 6:00 AM - Didn't ask about the banana. You shouldn't either. >.> 7:00 AM - Still didn't ask about the banana, which the dog has eaten by now through her ear. 8:00 AM - Went to my therapist 9:00 AM - Found out I'm insane. 10:00 AM - Went to nut house. 11:00 AM - Had hot buttery sex with a bagel. 12:00 PM - Got a pistol shoved up my ass, which is the size of Texas 13:00 PM - Ate the bagel. 1:00 PM - Found out there is no 13:00 PM, and it's accually 2:00 PM now. 3:00 PM - Molested a chair. 4:00 PM - Got molested by a chair. 5:00 PM - The Armadillos attacked and the White Jackets came with needles. 6:00 PM - Saved from Armadillos and White Jackets by a Monkey. 7:00 PM - Monkeys faught the Seahorses. 8:00 PM - I fell asleep on a doughnut. 9:00 PM - Ate the doughnut in my sleep 10:00 PM - Slept on the ground. 11:00 PM - 12:00 PM - Asleep 1:00 PM - Awake, new day. |
|
|
|
I just woke up... and I'm uber tired.... Guess what!!! No, guess first.... GUESS!!! Thank you... but no, that's not it... xD Anywho... I've got 35 CDs... =D.... and your grandma ate my sausage flavored cucumber eating sex machine. o.o Wait... I had a sex machine... >< Why wasn't I notified of this?! WHY?! TELL ME! Lol...aaaanywho.... >< I say anywho too often... new word!!! -blink- Uhhh... any suggestions on a new word? Please, leave in comment box =D |
|
|
|
This is my random entry. Bunches of random shit! YAY!!!! xD Chocolate pudding... don't ask... I have a habit of just saying that....xD I'M NOT ON ANYTHING, I SWEAR! >< Anywho...       Sorry, boredom o.o My dog -almost typed my Piddles- (Piddles is my dog's name) snores xD It's funny... Anywho... Damn, my boring entries are more exciting then my notboring entries....o.O Anywho... end of entry ._. |
|
soxnotxemo
Oh, My Love.. Jul 2nd, 2005 1:22:20 am - Subscribe
|
|
Theres something about you, something that I'll never understand. One moment its like I'm everything, then as though I'm just something to make up for empty moments in time. The way you look at me, could it possibly be, anything but love? I'd kill to see your smile for me every moment I live, but it seems the good things are impossible to have. I'm ready to pull you close, I'm ready to push you away. I'm ready to just say "Fuck everything, won't you love me always?" Charlie, I'm sorry for what I said to you. I regret the thought and for hurting you. I just wish you could see things my way..I wish you knew how truely amazing you, how you make my knees weak by giving me a simple grin, how I can never sleep at night until I take one last look at your picture and whisper, "Goodnight...". Does it really sound like I'm ready to let go and plunge into a life of cold, desparing solitude?... I'll fucking love you until the day I die.. |
 ^Myself and Andy^ ...I talked to Andy today over Yahoo Messanger..He said that...We..Uhg...That we might be splitting up soon or something of that nature.. When I heard that my heart sunk somewhere into my shallow being..I really do try to express my love for him as best I can...But it's hard for me..I don't like to appear to close to anyone nor show feelings for anyone in public.. ..He also says I'm not comitted enough..I try I really do...But people are always trying to wedge inbetween us...What the fuck am I supposed to do here!?...Andy..I care about you...Give me a little more time..I'll prove I'm worth your time...I promise.. ....Love you, Andy... |
|
|
|
BLARG! ._. Sorry, Gonzalo, I stole your word I don't care tho. Anywho. Life's a bitch. ._. I feel like a bitch. -sigh- Do I ever do anything RIGHT?! Shit, man. I flirt with everyone... whether they're taken or not... I nead help, seriously. ;-; I need a boyfriend/girlfriend... that's it... if I'm taken, I don't flirt wit no one. Cause if I'm taken... I'm all about that one person... -smiles dreamily- GAWD! I'm making myself cry... I'm bringin' up memories of James... I still wanna know what his deal is. He hasn't said anything to me in FOREVER. I say over and over again that I'm starting to get over him, but I'm not. I miss him more and more every day. I'm just trying to hide my feelings to prove that I can move on. I don't think anyone thinks I can move on... seeing as how crazy I was for him. Everyone thinks I'm turning into a goody-goody.... fuuuuuck..... I'm so far from a fuckin' goody goody. Shit, man. >< My mom hasn't found out about my pierced belly button yet xD Oh well -shrug- Lol. My friend, James (not ex bf James), met up with his old girlfriend and now they're back together... I sometimes wonder if James is even at least a little bit bi anymore... o.o Cause all he's talked about is Brandi... >< It's seriously starting to get on my nerves!!!! I wanna hear him talk about Miyavi or Gackt or Se7en... >.> Lol. I wanna move... and I don't mean to another town... or state... I mean I wanna move to another country... I don't know which one though... I think I'm going to move to Canada... but that place is a lot like America... I could like... move to Hawaii... =D Water everywhere!!!! ^.^ I know it's still USA... but but but... ^.^ Swimming... I love swimming... =D I look fat in a bathing suit tho xD Ok... I don't look any fatter in a bathing suit than I do out of a bathing suit, but oh well... and I type too fuckin' much!!!!! >< I'm gonna stop typing RIGHT NOW!!! ._. |
|
soxnotxemo
And I'm Never Looking Back Jul 1st, 2005 3:22:10 pm - Subscribe
|
|
Charlie is becoming a pimp (but one of those cool pimps, not the one that extorts girls for profit. :]), which I'm unable to do. It might be easier if the girls that message me do more than say, "im horny" or something along the lines of, "i want your hard d*ck". Sorry ladies, if its hard, its not for some trampy girl who hits on anyone with a roll of pennies (maybe quarters?..) in their pants. :] My neighbors seem to have this thing for staring at me. They scream at each other outside, have the cops called on them, and have atleast one of them arrested infront of their house, yet somehow I'M the abnormal one getting looks. Maybe they know about Charlie and are just hoping for a show. :| "Wait for it, wait for it...Oh, my god! Yes! They finally kissed!" |
|
Arlighto, I was going to post something cheery and such but seeing how I checked my blog comments I'm rather grumpy from this: Anonymous - June 30th, 2005 - "I'm American and you suck at life, Jerry. Stand up if you won the war." For one, I don't hate America like," Yeah, let's nuke the whole damn place." I'm talking about how I hate the fastfood places, how everyone is expected to be so super skinny and pretty. Some peoples' body types won't allow it, go to school and learn.Lots of American people I know who live there say they hate it too, if you're bitching at me because I'm German, stop being so famned racist. And the whole," Stand up if you won the war."...I wasn't saying that Germany nor the Germans were better, but for being such a snot and ragging on me in my own blog, you're proving to me that it's not worth my time to come to the States and that Americans can be snobby. Nice job setting a good example for the States. -Funk off- |
|
|
|
By the power vested in me by the state of Evolution, I declare myself sexy. For living features must be sexy Or how'd they lure mates and ricochet Down the pinball chutes of history To mock me from the mirror-squares glued to the wall by my bed? Survival is sexy. Hose nose, sexy Warto chin, cave brows, sexy Fungus ears? sexy! Beer belly? sexy! Bald heads burning like red wax testicles in the sun? sexy! Scary big shoulders, brute arms, big stinky feet: sexy. Stringy muscle lumps, gnarled as a root! Sexy. Hairy fat baggy butts: sexy. Dead men aren't sexy. You can't hump stiffs for long. Einstein Gandhi Hitler Valentino Christ? Sorry, not sexy. We're talkin' guys here Or I'd surely observe Marilyn Monroe's not sexy. But that snout-ring snarler down your block, yelling at her kid all day, who barely beat the booze and chainsucks cola, turned to fat. A scarred survivor (more or loss)-- Sexy. But--beautiful? Am I, are we, humanity, sexy but... ugly? Sex a stinky old thing: porcupine pisses on his lover cat rips with barbed penis Mantises suck faces dry Crocs bite and bleed. Was my body born for just a brainless antler-bonk? Am I.. butt-ugly? And if I'm NOT beautiful by birthright (and the twisted cartoon faces flooding thru the cities, children of ugly lovers, lovers of ugly children, testify to some uneasy seismic fault under beauty's ice-carved peaks) If I'm not beautiful... beauty and sex better get a divorce-- and do something responsible about the kids! We hold these truths to be self-evident that all men are created ugly. Killer buffoons! As I write, it's near to that-- Watch any show. "Men are obsolete." Oh those raging hormones. All dressed up in courage And no place to go. "Oh" they say "you're just making a big thing outa something small." Small and wrinkled soft, yes, swells big, tight shivering and all the while you call it a weapon, ME-- as exquisitely fragile and sensitive as a naked eyeball whose fluttering lid was hacked off by a razor, sans anesthetic when you were small and wrinkled soft no big thing and they take it for granted and they take it. Is clitoridectomy Is hymen battering Is rape itself... Gender revenge? 2: 1996 Maybe not, but women blind to the mass boy mutilation rant on about violence "to women" as if men were ever safe! Or do we deserve to be hurt? It's not even the trauma per se that enrages me, it's the bigotry revealed (like an eyelid peeled) by the big yawn when boy babies shriek Burn them cut them let's cut them THERE ha ha. Just so it's only boys. Boys don't cry like fish don't feel. Boys can take it. And they do, don't they? Take it and take it And take and take, and take YOU and take Arms and take revenge and take. They give nothing: it's what they have to give. Oh well, let's draft them, we can send them away. Maybe they'll die there. If not, cheer up: there's always jail. 3: 1999 "Well," says Coyote, hopping onto my sill, "You ARE a species in progress." |
This will be like...My bio entry for my blog, read it or die.: Name: Charlie Age:17 Birthdate: December 10th, 1987 Loaction: Germany Sex: Male Marital Status: Single Occupation: Student In High School Loves: Andy,music,punk rock(etc.), computers, internet, art, painting, drawing, posing for nude paintings(Ppf, not),eating food,Chinese Food,running about naked, licking people, biting them also, spooning,throwing things at passing cars, riding the dogs through the yard, screaming, being stupid, standing around at malls, playing the bass, going to preform, fire, animals, penguins,keys..Etc. Hates: People who pretend to be smart, America, religion, sharks, Mexican food, telephones ringing all the time, having to go places when he does want to, when people make Andy cry, Rap music, along with Country, people who get others to like something they like by forcing them too, people who are against homosexuals, etc. (Try not to be one of these people.) Other Information: I'm in love with my boyfriend named Andy, he's sweet and takes care of me.While I serve as his protection from anyone he wishes not to be around or talk to, and no, I'm not full out gay, I'm bisexual. We have been together for about a year now, we met like...Shit, 3rd grade I think? We have been friends for a long time. We are also in a band with some other really cool guys, and one girl, she sings along with Andy. She's cool for a girl, but I think I'm cooler. Lol, I play the bass. We sometimes go and preform at bars and such, I'd rather be listening and watching than preforming though. Anyways, I like to spend most of my time at home naked, offten wearing my snow boots and my large furry rabbit hat, it's fun..But it kinda freaks the family out sometimes. |
|
soxnotxemo
I'm Living A Lie Jun 30th, 2005 8:44:13 pm - Subscribe
|
|
I always would pride myself on how I wasn't one of those stupid fads in life. How I didn't care what other people thought of me. Maybe none of that is true at all. I'm losing interest in things I once loved. Its getting harder to climb out of bed each day. I'm waiting for a moment when I can know that everything is really going to be okay..but for now, that moment seems impossible. Things feel stressed with Charlie. I'm questioning how much he really cares anymore. I don't find myself to be anything special and I wonder..Why does he love -me-, when he can have..so much more? I'm more than blessed to have him even has a friend. I think other people realize that too...and it feels like the world is ready to take him away. So I'm left here to wonder..when will he give in? |
|
|
|
Nya! I have sunburn... it doesn't hurt tho... just stings a bit. My brothers are so week xD weak week, whichever it is o.o Anywho. they have sunburns too, but I can't touch them or they'll say it hurts xD I let everyone touch my sunburns... it doesn't hurt... ._. much. Lol. I'm turning into a smurf... again *-* Lol I think I should stop playing with those blue markers... every time I do, I get my hands all blue.. and then my keyboard turns all blue... x.X I think I type too much... ^.^ Oh well... who cares? NOt me. o.o Ok, I'm weird... ^_________^ It's all good tho. =D >< I hate it when someone asks a question.. and I don't quite know how to answer it o.o... like last night... my friend asked why people get jealous... >< I don't have a clue how to answer that >< DON'T ASK ME QUESTIONS >< I'll get a brain cramp xD |