-::I Can't Sleep::-
Date: Aug 20th, 2005 7:37:21 am - Subscribe
Mood: overloaded
Beh... I told Nicholas I was going to go to bed when he did.. Then I told him, that I wasn't going to because I wasn't tired, but, I lied, I tried to sleep.. I just can't.
..Little boy, it's all your fault!
I keep thinking about you non-stop.. It's getting really bad, in a way that I remember every little detail of my dreams that you're in, and I remember every little thing that you say.
I feel like I need you around all the time, which I can't have, and, I feel like you don't need me as much as I need you.
When you're not around, I'm upset.. But when you come on to say something to me, like you won't be on long because someone is over or something like that, and then you leave, it makes me even more upset because I really don't want you to go..
I'm glad I fell in love with you, and I'm trying not to say or do anything to piss you off enough to make you leave me or say those same things you said when we got into that really bad fight with Amber..
I know I'm stupid, and I say stupid things sometimes.. But, I really don't mean them..
I have so many thoughts right now I can't even think of want to say next and my tears aren't helping me at all at this point..
.. I really really love you, and I can see us being together even when we are older..
But.. That will only happen if you allow it..
I need to go to bed now, it's late.. And I have work in the morning, which you already know about.. So..
I love you, Nicholas..
Sweet dreams and stay safe...
<3 Forever and always..
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rememberme - August 20th, 2005 |
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