zukunft's Aeonity Blog

Well, post_love asked me to write down some German rock bands and i set up a list down at the us amazon, check it out (click)

its 2 am here, i am feeling really awful, i think i have a cold and sore throat and and and...that or too much beer...or probably both are bringing me down...

some days ago a girl asked me why such a nice guy doesnt have a girl friend right now...well because of my personal insecurity there is no place for something like that...its all about getting hurt or exposed or what is the right english word for this?

i just cant stand closeness, go away, f*** you, leave me alone. relationships are so much scary for me that i probably say this to people than what i really want to say: i like you, i love you, i wanna meet you, how do you do....its all psychological.

Man, I have got horrible toothache since Thursday, i think thats the thing which is driving me really insane the last days.

Funny that i had been fine before i was at the dentist last week...thats life...

I am looking forward for a appointment tomorrow, she (my dentist) really need to (re)fix it...

so long i am chewing ibuprofen....

...by my dentist....the hurting tooth is ok, but the root isnt. lets talk root extraction and filling...man....i am really fucked up..

despite local anaesthesia i ran into pain so she only dig some holes and injected some toxicological liquid to kill the nerve.

have i already mentioned that it hurts? i have not eaten or drunken anything for 20 hours now...the anaesthesia is still on...

in 2 weeks the nerve will be picked...hooray...

After hanging around @home for almost a week i rised up and went for a short walk in the snow (and the ice). I am feeling physically better today, but my mind is filled of sorrow, i need to give myself more time and also i have listened to that First to Last record too long last night...

I made some pictures with that tiny mobile phone cam i hate so much....

first picture show me lying around sleepy in bed, next one i am asking myself "should i stay or should i go?", the next two pictures shows me on the road and last one is of a friends cat...i dont know why i post it here, i think i must have gone insane or something like that..