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I am back! |
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| I am so happy right now. I getting married in January..yey! |
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Days and months had gone by... and yet there's no changes in my life. Even this feeling that I still have for him. Geez.. why... can't it be, why can't it be just the two of us.. I feel so fustrated with you TOYO.. HOW CAN I LET GO? All I want to make my life complete is you... ONLY YOU. Maybe it was wrong to love you... but how can it be so wrong when it felt so right. What we had was perfect... or I thought was perfect. You left me off guard.. and now you totally gave everything away, even the friendship that you said will remain between us. Didn't you ever think that it is unfair on my part, when all I gave was love, pure love. I waswilling to give and sacrifice everything and anything for you. But... HELL you didn't even care. You didn't have gutts to fight was little left for us. Sometimes I'd like to think that you just used me because you got nothing left and I was there, to fill that empty spot in your life. I blame my self for giving it all... I mean ALL of me. I was so blind... I should have prepared myself to the knowing. I should have listen to those you who saw it coming, or I should have been smart enough to realize the inevitable. But what the FUCK... I loved you unconditionally. Well thank you for the pain and hurt you left me... I can see that you are happy now. But good luck to the kind of life you chose. And as for me I need to go on with my life even if it still hard to let go of this love. Remember... I LOVED YOU and STILL LOVE YOU. |
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Days and months had gone by... and yet there's no changes in my life. Even this feeling that I still have for him. Geez.. why... can't it be, why can't it be just the two of us.. I feel so fustrated with you TOYO.. HOW CAN I LET GO? All I want to make my life complete is you... ONLY YOU. Maybe it was wrong to love you... but how can it be so wrong when it felt so right... to be continued.... |
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My birthday is coming up and I am going to have a big party... but there is one thing that I really hope and wish for... I wish that he would be there to complete my birthday.... TOYO sana you would celebrate it with me and our friends. |
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You think I am OK?... this is how I really feel for you TOYO.... the truth is Everyday...I try very hard to be strong and try not fall apart but everytime I see you, my heart aches. I feel helpless. I wanted to talk to you atleast, but you feel so far away. I thought I can easily just let it go, but the truth is, I've never let go of the feeling. I just hope that one day you would realize how much I care and love you. My friends say that I should use my head and just go with the flow but how can I? When in my heart is its always been you. It hurts to breathe because every breathe I take proves I can't live without you, I need you TOYO...you're the only one thats missing in my life. I hate to admit that the greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone I can never have.... now everyday i have to endure the reality that I am only loving you from afar. Lying to Myself - Freestyle I, BELIEVED IN YOU WHYD YOU LEAVE WHEN YOU SAID THAT YOUD NEVER LET ME GO ALL I GAVE WAS LOVE WASNT THAT ENOUGH TELL ME THE TRUTH, I NEED TO KNOW REFRAIN I CAN SAY TO MYSELF, THAT I DONT NEED YOU BESIDE ME THAT IVE FINALLY PUT IT ALL BEHIND ME BUT CHORUS ID ONLY BE LYING TO MYSELF AND ID ONLY BE DREAMING OF WHAT, I KNOW WOULD NOT COME TRUE COZ NO MATTER WHAT I DO TO TRY TO THINK IM DOING WELL REALITY IS THAT IM STILL NOT OVER YOU I, GO, EVERYDAY TRYING TO FIND MY WAY DRIFTING INTO THE EMPTY ROADS CRYIN EVERY NIGHT THESE TEARS, SO HARD TO FIGHT WHAT DO I DO, I JUST DONT KNOW REFRAIN I CAN SAY TO MYSELF THAT I NEVER NEEDED YOU, ANYWAY AND AFTER ALL, IVE NOTHING MORE TO SAY (REPEAT CHORUS) BRIDGE I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS NEVER ENDING I THOUGHT THAT WE WERE NOT PRETENDING IT WAS REAL I KNOW MY HEART WILL SOON BE MENDING AND AFTER THE RAIN, THE SUN WILL SOON REVEAL THAT I CHORUS II I HAVE BEEN LYING TO MYSELF AND I, I HAVE BEEN DREAMING OF WHAT I THOUGHT WOULD NOT COME TRUE I KNOW AFTER WHAT IM GOING THROUGH I WILL BE DOING WELL AND WHEN THE DAY COMES, I KNOW WHAT ILL SAY IS TRUE THAT REALITY IS IM FINALLY OVER YOU |
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I had enough.... my life has been a roller coaster. i need a new life. all about my life are sooooo complicated. i have fallen inlove to guys that hurt me all the freeakkkking time. I blame myself. Ang manhid kasi ni TOYO. Hindi nya alam I am willing to give up evrything, but on the second thought ang hirap i-give up anything when you feel in the end xa hindi kayang mag-giveup even just a little bit. Somehow I need to wake up....but I don't know how. |
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It's been forever since I last visit....my life has been crazy for the past months..new job, new friends...new stress, though i am happy. I miss most of my time on the net...i hardly get on coz of my new life....i just check my email and that's it. I still can't figure how i will be able to get my TICK TOCK back? Anybody? Well I will try to visit my blog again...well if i get the time. But hopefully! 
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| I lost my tick tock....I want it back, can somebody help me? PLEASE! |
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Hey! I am OOOONNN! I have been very busy started a new job and my schedule is crazy, I don't get on much at alllllll! I just check my emails and geeeeze i get alot of junk mails. Anyways, I just started a new job its cool except for the schedules that I get since its on shifting. I am a bit shock about the people I work with, they have some weird stuff going on. I am still on adjustment period, but I am getting the hang of it. And ummmm, yeah I guess I don't have much to say at the moment, but of course it nice to visit my blog! Oh yeah...hello to all by the way! |
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I finally quit my job and i got a new job right away, I got a better off and i will be starting on the 26th of September. Awsome! isn't it? My last day will be on the 17th and we will go out later that night...can't wait for that! |
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| Had my medical exam today and I hope it went well, I will still have to wait for 2 day for the results on monday, they told me they will call me or text me on monday for the result. And if there's no problem I will resign from my job....hahahaha can't wait! |
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| I had and interview with the new job and it went well....I am just waiting for their call so to know if I got in so I can give my resignation letter straight away. I can't wait to quit formally. My boss doesn't know shit that I am quiting my job and applying for a new one...hahahahaha! |
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I have decided to quit my job...yay! I got a new better and high payed one.....  My boss sucks! |
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I am soooooooo upset right now...I just found out something about this new from work, I found out that they are hiring another pharmacist and they are offering her a bigger salary than mine,its FUCKINGLY UNFAIR for me since...1. they are using my license to operate 2. I cam in first, 3. I have more experience she just graduated last semester and just got her license 2 weeks ago. 4. I came from a kick ass university she didn't....so hell its really unfair for me. I will definetly resign if that happens. Its good that my boss' secretary told me about it...and the hrd incharge for the our branch told me about it. She has to give me a raise...hell I go with so many stress and tension from my boss. Anyway, I'm sorry if I hardly post here...I miss my blog....she guys how busy I am and what I am going through with work and all..I even hardly visit all my sites? Miss you guys..ciao! |
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Hey what happened to EB i was shock..I thought I lost my blog...whats happening? David..update me! I have been sick and busy...seriously sick and I am fucking busy with work! My bf finally bought a webcam and a mic but still thats not enought for me.. My throat is killing me! Some guy wanted my email and number...he is from SD well duh! news flash not interested! |
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I am sick..I have a very high fever...I have a terrible cough...I don't know if i will be going to work tomorrow. I get sick often ever since I started working. I wish I will feel better soon. I miss my bf so much specially now. 
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| I have been very very busy....I am so tired! |
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Geez...its been forever since I last posted here.... Yeah been very busy from work...i don't really have time to check my sites and update my blog. Work is still the same.... I got a new hair cut and did my nails too. I saw an old friend from college...we have the same boss, coz we work for the same bad ass rich family. We went out for coffee and catch up, next friday we plan to go out with some of my other friends. I guess so far I am running a boring life. |
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I finally spoke to my boss and still she don't get what I am after....I am thinking of quiting. She is totally hopeless. Instead of giving me what i need she gave me an assignment which is not even my fucking line of job. I am so frustrated with her. Another story... I saw an old friend form college yesterday which was good. We plan to go out sometime soon. I had my nails done yesterday, well professional, since I haven't done it for ages. I told my bf about it and he said i had it done last month when I i didn't. Today I am so sleepy...so I guess I will just sleep in today, if not I will go out and have my hair cut and have to develop some photos. Oh by the way, Thanks David for the comment...just been busy thats why I haven't been on EB...I acutally miss this site. |